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Radha's Inner Turmoil

Radha was hiding inside the stall with her unstoppable tears while all hindu dasis outside were celebrating for Shenshah's first ever visit to their stalls.

Her entire body was shivering in frustrating anger, His ignorance made her feel very low.

She murmured to herself, once again you have shown my place with your cruel masking act. You are enjoying crushing my ego Shenshah. You very well know your actions have now started to impact me. You are really a true politician, what you say and what you do are two different things. What your eyes show doesn't reflect what's in your heart.

First you have tactfully kicked me out of the palace to prove what you can do and then that was not enough for you so you let me sit entire night helplessly on the bench just to wait for one note.

Oh Kanah! Why am I feeling vulnerable? When you saw me in the palace again you hurted me to extreme with your question what I am doing in the palace. Then you captured me with your charm. With your sweet mouth you always told me you won't let me go away but by your actions, you crushed me every second and made me weak and helpless so that I fall in your trap. Shenshah you have done that successfully, I am falling in your trap. I am completely charmed by your magnetism, I thought you were falling for me but how stupidot me to not understand that you just want me for one night stand. You feel low to talk to me in public. Your messages, your care, everything is fake and an act just to get me in your bed willingly. You just want me to bend down at your feet, probably I am the first one who is not easily available in your bed, so by hook or crook you want to get me and play with me.

Oh Kanah!!! I know everything about this heartless cruel womanizer but even though I know it all, why my heart is crying for his ignorance? Why I want his care? Why my heart is not ready to accept what my mind is telling? Ever since I have met him my tears swim in my eyes, always ready to come out. I never felt this feeble, ever. As soon as I see him I forget everything and get lost in his magical eyes, where I see only love and care for me. I have never failed to judge people, by looking at people I could tell who the culprit is. Kanah I need strength today... Please help to come out of his magical spell.

Jalal's Inner War
Jalal walked out of Meena bazaar very quickly, his heart was sinking because of his own actions. Instead of going for lunch he went straight to his chamber skipping his lunch. He cancelled all the meetings for the rest of the day. His entire body was getting numb little by little... in few minutes he felt like someone has sucked all the energy from his body. He sat on the sofa resting his head on it with closed eyes, two drops of tears dropped out from his eyes. He couldn't understand why he was feeling so guilty for his action. He sat on the sofa for three hours without any movement, completely shattered. This feeling of emptiness was making him restless. His tears dried up with his flood of emotions. After deep thoughts, he came to the conclusion that fear of his feelings towards Radha, is the reason of his actions.

Guard came inside and informed him that Abdul wants to see him.

Jalal hurriedly said "Send him in immediately". His face filled with worry...
Jalal worrily asked him "What information do you have".

Abdul sadly said "Shenshah, after you walked out from Radha's stall, she sat on the chair for few minutes like a lifeless, speechless, dumbstruck corpse. I couldn't understand what was more on her face the shock of what happened or the pain. But few minutes later, I saw uninvited tears flooding out from her eyes... to hide her tears she swiftly ran inside the stall and as per our other informer, she has not eaten anything since morning and also skipped her lunch. She hasn't come out yet and Reva told everyone that Radha is having severe headache so not to disturb her.

Jalal was shaken, surprised, sad and a little happy too hearing Radha's, condition. He was shocked and surprised because he didn't know his actions will have such an impact on her. Her pain gave him deep sting in his heart but the fact that his actions had impact on her and she felt the same way he was feeling made him happy.

Abdul politely asked "Shenshah, Can I ask you something?"

Jalal exactly knew his query; he noded his head with yes.

Abdul cautiously asked "Shenshah, Why?"

Jalal gloomily glanced at him and respond in one word "FEAR"

Abdul with horrified staggered look glared at Jalal like he has seen a ghost and didn't dare to ask him further.

After hearing about her condition Jalal couldn't control his own emotions, her tears shook him and he decided to face her once again. Finally, after a lot of thinking he decided to send her another message.

Jalal dictated the message to Abdul for Radha "Are you angry?"

Abdul looked at him with bewildered gaze "Shenshah, this message will make her more furious... Are you sure you want send this message?"

Jalal genuinely said "Yes, Abdul, I am sure."

Hearing Jalaal's reply Abdul walked out!

Jalal anxiously watched him walking out of his room.

Razia came to the stall counter and dryly said to Radha "Abdul is waiting for you outside by the exit gate."

Reva gave puzzling look to Radha...

Luckily their stall was very near from exit entrance gate.

Abdul in lower tone said "Radha, Shenshah has send this message for you"

Radha took message from him, with cold response she smiled a little. She read message and sneaked a peek at Abdul to read his expressions and then dryly said "Thank you Abdul" and promptly turned her back towards the gate and started walking.

Abdul with hesitant tone asked her "Do you have any message for Shenshah?"

She swiftly turned back and said in little rude tone "NO" but then Immediately she controled her anger and politely repeated "No Abdul Thank you."

Radha muttering while walking back "Am I angry, yes!!! Shenshah, I am really tremendously fuming angry at you!!! My entire body is boiling hot in blaze!!! Oh! Now I understand, you sent this message to see how I will react to it. You are enjoying my pain, probably it gives you peace in your heart. Probably you sent Abdul to see me how crushed and broken I am."

Abdul was out of breath when he got back to Jalal, with deep sigh out he said "She looked extremely angry" and she has no message for you.

Hearing that Jalal's face shuddered with annoyance... He told Abdul to write another message

"RADHA, When I ask you a question, it is better for you to reply with an answer. It is an order. I want answer for following two items:
1. ARE YOU ANGRY?
2. Why you have not eaten entire day? Looks like you really need a babysitter. If you don't eat in next thirty minutes, I will send ten dasis with food at the stall and that will be much more embarrassing for you and trust me you will end up compensating for your stubbornness."

Abdul looked at Jalal with confusing gaze; he murmured "She will be really mad with this message." He was trying scrambled words in his mind how to tell Jalal.

Meanwhile, guard announced the arrival of Mariam Makhani Hamida begum, she entered rapidly in the chamber and walked towards Jalal and asked him anxiously while checking his forehead for fever "Are you feeling okay Jalal? I heard you have cancelled all of your appointments and you have also skipped your lunch today."

Jalal self-consciously looked at Abdul with cornered eyes.

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 1:

Radha gejolak batin Radha bersembunyi di dalam bilik dengan dia menangis tak terbendung sementara semua dasis hindu di luar merayakan untuk Shenshah pertama pernah mengunjungi mereka untuk warung. Seluruh tubuhnya gemetar dalam kemarahan frustrasi, ia tidak membuatnya merasa sangat rendah. Bersungut-dia sungutlah tentang kepada dirinya sendiri, sekali lagi Anda telah menunjukkan tempat saya dengan tindakan kejam masking Anda. Anda menikmati menghancurkan ego saya Shenshah. Anda sangat baik tahu tindakan Anda sekarang mulai mempengaruhi saya. Anda benar-benar seorang politikus sejati, apa yang Anda katakan dan apa yang Anda lakukan adalah dua hal yang berbeda. Apa mata Anda menunjukkan tidak mencerminkan apa yang ada dalam hatimu. Pertama Anda dengan bijaksana menendang saya keluar dari Istana untuk membuktikan apa yang dapat Anda lakukan dan kemudian itu tidak cukup untuk Anda sehingga Anda membiarkan saya duduk sepanjang malam tak berdaya di bangku cadangan hanya untuk menunggu satu catatan. Oh Kanah! Why am I feeling vulnerable? When you saw me in the palace again you hurted me to extreme with your question what I am doing in the palace. Then you captured me with your charm. With your sweet mouth you always told me you won't let me go away but by your actions, you crushed me every second and made me weak and helpless so that I fall in your trap. Shenshah you have done that successfully, I am falling in your trap. I am completely charmed by your magnetism, I thought you were falling for me but how stupidot me to not understand that you just want me for one night stand. You feel low to talk to me in public. Your messages, your care, everything is fake and an act just to get me in your bed willingly. You just want me to bend down at your feet, probably I am the first one who is not easily available in your bed, so by hook or crook you want to get me and play with me. Oh Kanah!!! I know everything about this heartless cruel womanizer but even though I know it all, why my heart is crying for his ignorance? Why I want his care? Why my heart is not ready to accept what my mind is telling? Ever since I have met him my tears swim in my eyes, always ready to come out. I never felt this feeble, ever. As soon as I see him I forget everything and get lost in his magical eyes, where I see only love and care for me. I have never failed to judge people, by looking at people I could tell who the culprit is. Kanah I need strength today... Please help to come out of his magical spell. Jalal di dalam perang Jalal berjalan keluar dari Meena bazaar sangat cepat, hatinya tenggelam karena tindakannya sendiri. Daripada pergi untuk makan siang, ia pergi langsung ke ruang nya melewatkan makan siang. Ia membatalkan semua pertemuan selama sisa hari. Seluruh tubuhnya semakin mati rasa sedikit demi sedikit... dalam beberapa menit, ia merasa seperti seseorang telah mengisap semua energi dari tubuhnya. Dia duduk di sofa beristirahat kepalanya di atasnya dengan mata tertutup, dua tetes air mata keluar dari matanya. Dia tidak bisa mengerti mengapa ia merasa bersalah untuk tindakannya. Dia duduk di sofa selama tiga jam tanpa setiap gerakan, benar-benar hancur. Perasaan kekosongan itu membuatnya gelisah. Matanya kering dengan nya banjir emosi. Setelah dalam pikiran, ia sampai pada kesimpulan bahwa rasa takut terhadap perasaannya terhadap Radha, alasan tindakannya. Penjaga datang dalam dan memberitahunya bahwa Abdul ingin melihatnya. Jalal buru-buru mengatakan "Kirim dia segera". Wajahnya dipenuhi khawatir... Jalal worrily bertanya "Apakah informasi apakah Anda memiliki". Abdul sedih berkata "Shenshah, setelah Anda berjalan keluar dari kios Radha, dia duduk di kursi selama beberapa menit seperti mayat tak bernyawa, terdiam dan bingung. Aku tidak bisa mengerti apa itu lebih pada wajahnya shock apa yang terjadi atau rasa sakit. Tapi beberapa menit kemudian, aku melihat air-mata tanpa diundang banjir dari matanya... untuk menyembunyikan matanya ia cepat berlari di dalam warung dan sesuai informan kami yang lain, ia tidak makan apa-apa sejak pagi dan juga melewatkan makan siang. Dia belum keluar lagi dan darisuhadi memberitahu semua orang bahwa Radha mengalami sakit kepala parah jadi untuk tidak mengganggu dirinya. Jalal terguncang, terkejut, sedih dan sedikit bahagia juga mendengar Radha, kondisi. Ia adalah terkejut dan terkejut karena dia tidak tahu tindakannya akan memiliki dampak yang begitu pada dirinya. Rasa sakitnya memberinya sting mendalam dalam hatinya tapi fakta bahwa tindakannya memiliki dampak pada dirinya dan ia merasa dengan cara yang sama ia merasa membuatnya bahagia. Abdul sopan bertanya "Shenshah, dapat saya mengajukan sesuatu?" Jalal persis tahu kueri nya; Dia noded kepalanya dengan ya. Abdul hati-hati bertanya "Shenshah, mengapa?" Jalal gloomily melirik ke arahnya dan merespon dalam satu kata "Takut" Abdul dengan ngeri terhuyung-huyung tampilan melotot Jalal seperti dia telah melihat hantu dan tidak berani bertanya lebih lanjut. Setelah mendengar tentang kondisinya Jalal tidak bisa mengendalikan emosinya sendiri, matanya mengguncang jiwanya dan ia memutuskan untuk menghadapi dia sekali lagi. Akhirnya, setelah banyak berpikir ia memutuskan untuk mengirim pesan lain. Jalal dictated the message to Abdul for Radha "Are you angry?" Abdul looked at him with bewildered gaze "Shenshah, this message will make her more furious... Are you sure you want send this message?" Jalal genuinely said "Yes, Abdul, I am sure." Hearing Jalaal's reply Abdul walked out! Jalal anxiously watched him walking out of his room. Razia came to the stall counter and dryly said to Radha "Abdul is waiting for you outside by the exit gate." Reva gave puzzling look to Radha... Luckily their stall was very near from exit entrance gate. Abdul in lower tone said "Radha, Shenshah has send this message for you" Radha took message from him, with cold response she smiled a little. She read message and sneaked a peek at Abdul to read his expressions and then dryly said "Thank you Abdul" and promptly turned her back towards the gate and started walking. Abdul with hesitant tone asked her "Do you have any message for Shenshah?" She swiftly turned back and said in little rude tone "NO" but then Immediately she controled her anger and politely repeated "No Abdul Thank you." Radha muttering while walking back "Am I angry, yes!!! Shenshah, I am really tremendously fuming angry at you!!! My entire body is boiling hot in blaze!!! Oh! Now I understand, you sent this message to see how I will react to it. You are enjoying my pain, probably it gives you peace in your heart. Probably you sent Abdul to see me how crushed and broken I am." Abdul was out of breath when he got back to Jalal, with deep sigh out he said "She looked extremely angry" and she has no message for you. Hearing that Jalal's face shuddered with annoyance... He told Abdul to write another message "RADHA, When I ask you a question, it is better for you to reply with an answer. It is an order. I want answer for following two items: 1. ARE YOU ANGRY? 2. Why you have not eaten entire day? Looks like you really need a babysitter. If you don't eat in next thirty minutes, I will send ten dasis with food at the stall and that will be much more embarrassing for you and trust me you will end up compensating for your stubbornness." Abdul looked at Jalal with confusing gaze; he murmured "She will be really mad with this message." He was trying scrambled words in his mind how to tell Jalal. Meanwhile, guard announced the arrival of Mariam Makhani Hamida begum, she entered rapidly in the chamber and walked towards Jalal and asked him anxiously while checking his forehead for fever "Are you feeling okay Jalal? I heard you have cancelled all of your appointments and you have also skipped your lunch today." Jalal self-consciously looked at Abdul with cornered eyes.