and I’ve had plenty of sleepovers w

and I’ve had plenty of sleepovers with Juls and Joey. Of course, I doubt they watch me for hours after I pass out. Humph. He climbs under the covers with me and pulls me close to him so that we’re nose to nose.

“So, I hear we’re going to be paired up at the wedding.” His hand trails down my shoulder to my waist and holds me there as I try to keep my smile at bay. “You okay with that? It will be like a date you know. Rather intimate.” His lip curls up and I give into it.

“I’m okay with that. I have been on a few dates before. Have you?”

“No, well not in a really long time.” A really long time? What classifies a really long time? Why is he so against dating now? I push these questions out of my head and focus on another.

“Have you always been monogamously casual with girls?” This has definitely been on my mind recently. I had initially pegged him as a total player with multiple women at all times but had never dared to ask.

His eyes flick to mine quickly before he drops them. “No.” I reach up and run my hand down his arm, rubbing his shoulders the way he likes and seeing his eyes close slowly. “I’ve never really wanted to be before you.” I stop breathing at his admission. Holy shit. Was Joey right? Am I a game changer? My hand stills on his bicep and his eyes shoot open, locking onto mine. “You make me want different things, things I’ve never wanted before.”

“Why?” I force out and continue rubbing his arm. I need to know the answer to this. I want to know if his reasons are the same as mine. I’ve experienced more before but not in the way that I want with Reese. I want everything with him.

He keeps his eyes on me and sighs softly. “I don’t know, but I can’t stand the idea of not being monogamously casual with you. I have no desire to be with anyone else and the thought of you with another man,” his hand comes flying up through his hair, stopping my massage, “it fucking infuriates me.”

Well, that settles that. Like there’s any other man on the planet that I want to ever be with now that I’ve experienced this one. I scoot in closer and continue working his arm, reaching around towards his back. “I know the feeling,” I reply as his eyes close shut again, his lips quivering into a smile. Silence falls between us and I let my mind wander while I work his back and shoulder. I feel like I’m making progress with Reese, progress out of the casual zone and towards something more serious which I am dying to sprint to. But I know I can’t rush him and he’ll have to do this at his own pace if he even wants to. If I’ve learned anything from the past few weeks with him, it’s that he does everything at his own pace. He likes to be in control, even though he told me that I have it all which completely threw me for a loop. I’m chalking that up to him just worrying about my safety. He was obviously scared for me and when you’re scared, you say crazy shit. He likes to show how much power he has and his authority over situations, as he clearly displayed when he destroyed my dress. So I’ll let him control this, control us because I like the pace he’s taking. As long as he takes me with him.

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and I’ve had plenty of sleepovers with Juls and Joey. Of course, I doubt they watch me for hours after I pass out. Humph. He climbs under the covers with me and pulls me close to him so that we’re nose to nose.“So, I hear we’re going to be paired up at the wedding.” His hand trails down my shoulder to my waist and holds me there as I try to keep my smile at bay. “You okay with that? It will be like a date you know. Rather intimate.” His lip curls up and I give into it.“I’m okay with that. I have been on a few dates before. Have you?”“No, well not in a really long time.” A really long time? What classifies a really long time? Why is he so against dating now? I push these questions out of my head and focus on another.“Have you always been monogamously casual with girls?” This has definitely been on my mind recently. I had initially pegged him as a total player with multiple women at all times but had never dared to ask.His eyes flick to mine quickly before he drops them. “No.” I reach up and run my hand down his arm, rubbing his shoulders the way he likes and seeing his eyes close slowly. “I’ve never really wanted to be before you.” I stop breathing at his admission. Holy shit. Was Joey right? Am I a game changer? My hand stills on his bicep and his eyes shoot open, locking onto mine. “You make me want different things, things I’ve never wanted before.”"Kenapa?" Aku memaksa keluar dan melanjutkan menggosok lengannya. Saya perlu tahu jawaban untuk ini. Saya ingin tahu jika alasan-alasan yang sama dengan saya. Saya pernah mengalami lebih sebelum tetapi tidak dalam cara yang saya inginkan dengan Reese. Saya ingin semuanya dengannya.Dia terus mata saya dan mendesah lembut. "Aku tidak tahu, tapi aku tidak bisa berdiri gagasan tidak menjadi monogamously kasual dengan Anda. Saya tidak punya keinginan untuk menjadi dengan orang lain dan pemikiran Anda dengan orang lain,"tangan-Nya datang terbang naik melalui rambutnya, menghentikan pijat saya,"hal fucking infuriates saya."Well, that settles that. Like there’s any other man on the planet that I want to ever be with now that I’ve experienced this one. I scoot in closer and continue working his arm, reaching around towards his back. “I know the feeling,” I reply as his eyes close shut again, his lips quivering into a smile. Silence falls between us and I let my mind wander while I work his back and shoulder. I feel like I’m making progress with Reese, progress out of the casual zone and towards something more serious which I am dying to sprint to. But I know I can’t rush him and he’ll have to do this at his own pace if he even wants to. If I’ve learned anything from the past few weeks with him, it’s that he does everything at his own pace. He likes to be in control, even though he told me that I have it all which completely threw me for a loop. I’m chalking that up to him just worrying about my safety. He was obviously scared for me and when you’re scared, you say crazy shit. He likes to show how much power he has and his authority over situations, as he clearly displayed when he destroyed my dress. So I’ll let him control this, control us because I like the pace he’s taking. As long as he takes me with him.

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dan aku sudah banyak acara menginap dengan Juls dan Joey. Tentu saja, saya ragu mereka menonton saya selama berjam-jam setelah saya pingsan. Huh. Dia naik di bawah selimut dengan saya dan menarikku dekat dengannya sehingga kami hidung ke hidung. "Jadi, saya mendengar kita akan dipasangkan di pesta pernikahan." Tangannya jalur bawah bahu saya ke pinggang saya dan memegang saya ada karena saya mencoba untuk tetap tersenyum saya di teluk. "Kamu baik-baik saja dengan itu? Ini akan menjadi seperti tanggal Anda tahu. Sebaliknya intim. "Nya ikal bibir atas dan saya memberikan ke dalamnya." Aku baik-baik saja dengan itu. Saya telah di beberapa tanggal sebelumnya. Apakah Anda? "" Tidak, juga tidak dalam waktu yang sangat lama. "Sebuah waktu yang sangat lama? Apa mengklasifikasikan waktu yang sangat lama? Kenapa dia begitu terhadap kencan sekarang? Saya mendorong pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini keluar dari kepala saya dan fokus pada yang lain. "Apakah Anda selalu monogamously santai dengan gadis-gadis?" Ini pasti telah di pikiran saya baru-baru ini. Saya awalnya dipatok dia sebagai pemain keseluruhan dengan beberapa wanita sepanjang waktu, tetapi tidak pernah berani bertanya. Mata film Nya untuk menambang dengan cepat sebelum dia menjatuhkan mereka. "Tidak" Aku mencapai dan menjalankan tanganku ke bawah lengannya, menggosok bahu jalan dia suka dan melihat matanya dekat perlahan-lahan. "Aku tidak pernah benar-benar ingin menjadi sebelum Anda." Aku berhenti bernapas saat masuk nya. Sialan. Adalah Joey benar? Apakah saya game changer? Saya stills tangan di bisep dan matanya menembak terbuka, mengunci ke tambang. "Anda membuat saya ingin hal yang berbeda, hal yang saya tidak pernah ingin sebelumnya." "Kenapa?" Aku memaksa keluar dan terus menggosok lengannya. Saya perlu tahu jawaban untuk ini. Aku ingin tahu apakah alasannya adalah sama dengan saya. Saya alami lagi sebelum tapi tidak dalam cara yang saya inginkan dengan Reese. Aku ingin semuanya dengan dia. Dia terus matanya pada saya dan mendesah pelan. "Saya tidak tahu, tapi aku tidak tahan gagasan tidak menjadi monogamously santai dengan Anda. Saya tidak memiliki keinginan untuk menjadi dengan orang lain dan pikiran Anda dengan pria lain, "tangannya datang ke atas melalui rambutnya, menghentikan pijat," itu sialan membuat marah saya. "Nah, yang mengendap itu. Seperti ada laki-laki lain di planet ini yang ingin saya pernah bersama sekarang yang saya alami satu ini. Aku bergeser lebih dekat dan terus bekerja lengannya, mencapai sekitar menuju punggungnya. "Aku tahu perasaan itu," jawabku sebagai matanya tertutup dekat lagi, bibirnya bergetar tersenyum. Diam jatuh antara kami dan aku membiarkan pikiranku melayang sementara saya bekerja kembali dan bahunya. Aku merasa seperti aku membuat kemajuan dengan Reese, kemajuan keluar dari zona santai dan menuju sesuatu yang lebih serius yang aku mati untuk berlari ke. Tapi aku tahu aku tidak bisa terburu-buru dia dan dia harus melakukan hal ini pada kecepatan sendiri jika ia bahkan ingin. Jika saya telah belajar sesuatu dari beberapa minggu terakhir dengan dia, itu dia melakukan segala sesuatu dengan kecepatan sendiri. Ia suka mengendalikan, meskipun ia mengatakan kepada saya bahwa saya memiliki semuanya yang benar-benar melemparkan saya untuk loop. Saya Meninggalkan jejak yang sampai kepadanya hanya khawatir tentang keselamatan saya. Ia jelas takut untuk saya dan ketika kau takut, Anda mengatakan sialan gila. Ia suka untuk menunjukkan berapa banyak daya yang ia miliki dan kekuasaannya atas situasi, karena ia ditampilkan dengan jelas ketika ia menghancurkan pakaian saya. Jadi aku akan membiarkan dia mengendalikan ini, mengendalikan kita karena saya suka kecepatan dia mengambil. Selama dia membawa saya dengan dia.