She really wasn't sure how she was

She really wasn't sure how she was going to survive this pregnancy or more importantly survive another thirty minutes without food. That nausea pill had done wonders for her body and she wanted, no needed, food or she was pretty sure she would die.

"If I order an appetizer is there any chance I can get it quickly? I'm two and a half months pregnant with a Bradford," she said, not mentioning it was twins because the thought was actually starting to scare her and she hadn't told Trevor yet and didn't want him finding out this way. She just hoped the woman understood because she was close to crying. Judging by the slightly startled look on the woman's face she did.

The waitress shook her head. "No, you're right. You probably won't be able to survive the wait," she said, sending Trevor, who was still trying to get the woman to leave, a glare. "I'll bring you out a bowl of clam chowder followed by chicken fingers, they'll only take a few minutes to prepare. Will that work?"

Zoe nodded solemnly. "You are my hero."

"I'll put a rush on your food," the waitress said before walking away.

"Bless you," Zoe said, fighting the urge to kiss the woman. She was starving. She really couldn't remember ever being this hungry before. Was this how it felt to be a Bradford? she idly wondered as the woman who'd been flirting with Trevor stormed off in a huff.

"I'm really sorry about that," Trevor said, sighing as he rubbed the back of his neck, looking frustrated.

"It's fine," she said, shrugging it off.

There really wasn't anything he could do about it. As much as she would have liked one perfect night with him she wasn't too angry. It was probably for the best that they didn't have a perfect night together so that she didn't have something truly wonderful to reminisce over and have "what if?" thoughts about later.

"No, it's not. This is our first date," he said, reaching over and took her hand into his. She tried to pull her hand away, but he wasn't having that. Holding on to her hand tightly, but not enough to hurt, he shifted his chair closer to her.

"Maybe we should just focus on having a nice time out as friends instead of trying for the impossible," she said, trying to pull her hand away only to find herself tugged forward and her mouth covered.

He brushed his lips over hers several times before pulling back just far enough so that he could look into her eyes as he spoke. "This is a date, Zoe. Don't try to downplay what we've got going on just because you're afraid to see where this is headed," he said softly.

"I'm not afraid?" she said, immediately wishing she'd kept her big mouth shut. Seriously, when was she going to lose that irritating habit of not being able to lie? It would come in handy in moments like this or when she was trying to get out of jury duty.

"If it makes you feel better," he said, pausing to press a quick kiss against her lips that left her wanting more, "I'm just as scared as you are, but you need to remember one thing."

"What's that?" she whispered, feeling nervous by the intensity of his gaze, the way he was looking at her as if she made him happy....whole.

"I'm not going anywhere. We'll take this one day at a time, but we are going to give this a chance, Zoe."

"We are?" she asked breathlessly, feeling herself soften as she leaned forward to meet his lips. Maybe they could give this a try, she thought just as someone yelled his name. Sighing heavily, they both leaned back and Trevor gave the man, whom she'd like to point out looked stunned when he spotted her, a quick wave.

"Zoe,-" Trevor started only to be cut off by the waitress as she placed the largest bowl of clam chowder Zoe had ever seen in front of her with an equally large plate of chicken tenders.

"I took the liberty of doubling your order," she said, giving Trevor a pointed look.

"Thank you," he murmured, gesturing for Zoe to eat.

"Thank you. It looks really great," Zoe said just as the waitress started to walk away, barely able to take her eyes away from the food as her stomach growled viciously, startling the hell out of her.

Trevor simply chuckled as he handed her a large spoon. "Don't worry about it, sweetheart. From what I heard, Haley out ate Jason while she was pregnant."

"Please tell me you're kidding me," she said, truly horrified at the prospect of eating as much as Jason and that was only for one baby. Really, how much would she need for twins?

"I'm afraid not," he said, gesturing once again for her to eat.

She eyed him for a moment, giving her food a chance to cool and trying to figure out a way to make sense of everything. One thing she couldn't wrap her mind around was the way he was taking everything. It was a little unnerving actually to have Trevor suddenly declare that he wanted a future with her. She knew it was because of the babies, but he didn't know that and one day he would and she didn't want to be the one to pay when that day came.

"Why aren't you freaking out about this?" she asked, too curious to put it off for another moment. She ate some of her soup and nearly moaned with pleasure. It was so good and apparently her stomach agreed because it didn't threaten to make her run the hundred yard dash across the restaurant to get to the bathroom.

"I sort of did freak out when I found out," he admitted sheepishly, gesturing for her to continue to eat when she stopped to frown at him.

"What happened?" she asked, wishing she'd been there when he found out. Actually, she wished he'd been there to hold her hand when the doctor came back to tell her the news or when they rolled in the sonogram and checked to see how far along she was.

Almost three months along.

She'd been shocked when they told her and hyperventilating when they mentioned twins. After they left the room she lay in the semi-dark room and tried to wrap her mind around everything. By the time they came to give her something for the pain and announced that they were releasing her she was both nervous and excited about the future, but she'd also been a little frightened that Trevor wouldn't take it well and apparently he hadn't.

"It was a bit of a shock," he admitted. "When you didn't have your, um," he cleared his throat, looking adorably embarrassed, "your um....," he trailed off, looking at a loss for words.

"Friend?" she suggested, biting back a smile at the relieved look on his face. When her period didn't show up the first time she hadn't been all that nervous since her periods had become extremely irregular with her diet and they were using protection. It was also one of the things that scared her enough to get off the insane diet she was on because she was afraid of the damage it was causing her body, but now she knew she wasn't giving her babies enough food and she felt like crying.

"Yes, I thought you were on birth control," he admitted, shaking his head ruefully. "I really was an idiot to assume anything. I should have asked, but I was so damn excited to be with you that I have to admit that I really didn't use my head a lot," he said softly, reaching out to take her free hand. "I'm sorry that I messed this up, Zoe, but you need to know that I will never-"

"About time you dropped by," Hank, she thought his name was, said as he slapped a hand on the back of Trevor's shoulder, cutting off whatever pointless promise Trevor was about to make. Even though she loved him, he didn't love her and she couldn't allow him to settle for her when she knew he would never be happy.

"I'm in the middle of something here," Trevor bit out, gesturing to Zoe.

Hank? sent her a questioning look, but quickly shrugged it off, probably not giving her a second thought as he turned his attention back to Trevor. "I was asked by that group of lovely women," he said, gesturing to a group of three women, who took that as their cue to send Trevor little flirtatious smiles and waves, "to see if you would like to join us for a drink."

"I just told you that I'm in the middle of something here," he said, jaw clenching as he once again gestured her way.

"It's fine," she said, knowing there really was no point in prolonging the evening. Any delusions she'd once had about having any type of relationship had been effectively squashed. She'd rather just sit here alone and enjoy this tasty meal before she went home to her semi-empty apartment. After nearly five months of dieting she was going to indulge tonight. Hell, she might even get dessert.

With ice cream.

Yes, she realized she was spiraling into binge eating and was probably on the verge of a major depression, but thankfully this time she had two Bradfords to help her out with the excess calories and hopefully by the time they were born she'd be over Trevor.

Okay, that wasn't very likely to happen, but at least by then she wouldn't be able to afford food for herself since she had two Bradfords to feed. It would be fine, because she'd be so busy trying to take care of her babies to think about Trevor.

She'd be fine.

Really.
Now if she could only believe that everything would be okay.

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 1:

Dia benar-benar tidak yakin bagaimana dia akan selamat kehamilan ini atau lebih penting bertahan lain tiga puluh menit tanpa makanan. Bahwa pil mual telah melakukan keajaiban untuk tubuhnya dan dia ingin, tidak diperlukan, makanan atau dia adalah cukup yakin ia akan mati."Jika aku memesan hidangan pembuka ada kesempatan saya bisa mendapatkannya dengan cepat? Saya hamil dengan Bradford dua setengah bulan,"ia berkata, tidak menyebutkan itu kembar karena pikiran benar-benar mulai menakut-nakuti dan dia tidak memberitahu Trevor belum dan tidak ingin dia mengetahui cara ini. Dia hanya berharap perempuan dipahami karena ia dekat dengan menangis. Menilai oleh sedikit terkejut ekspresi wajah wanita yang dia lakukan.Pelayan menggelengkan kepalanya. "Tidak, kau benar. Anda mungkin tidak akan mampu bertahan menunggu,"katanya, mengirim Trevor, yang masih mencoba untuk mendapatkan perempuan untuk meninggalkan, silau. "Aku akan membawa Anda keluar semangkuk sup krim kerang yang diikuti dengan jari-jari ayam, mereka hanya akan mengambil beberapa menit untuk mempersiapkan. Yang akan berhasil?"Zoe mengangguk khidmat. "Anda adalah pahlawan saya.""Aku akan menaruh terburu-buru pada makanan Anda," kata pelayan sebelum berjalan pergi."Memberkati Anda," Zoe mengatakan, melawan dorongan untuk mencium perempuan. Dia kelaparan. Dia benar-benar tidak ingat pernah menjadi lapar sebelum ini. Ini bagaimana rasanya menjadi Bradford? Dia santai bertanya-tanya seperti wanita yang telah menggoda dengan Trevor menyerbu dengan gusar."Saya sangat menyesal tentang hal itu," kata Trevor, mendesah sambil mengusap bagian belakang lehernya, mencari frustrasi."Ini baik," katanya, mengangkat bahu dari.Benar-benar tidak ada apa-apa yang bisa ia lakukan tentang hal itu. Sama seperti dia akan menyukai satu malam yang sempurna dengan-nya dia tidak terlalu marah. Mungkin itu yang terbaik bahwa mereka tidak memiliki malam yang sempurna bersama-sama sehingga ia tidak punya sesuatu yang benar-benar indah untuk bernostalgia atas dan memiliki "Bagaimana jika?" pikiran tentang nanti."Tidak, hal ini tidak. Ini adalah kencan pertama kami,"Dia berkata, mencapai atas dan mengambil tangannya ke dalam. Dia mencoba untuk menarik tangannya pergi, tapi ia tidak memiliki itu. Dia memegang tangannya erat, tetapi tidak cukup untuk menyakiti, bergeser kursinya lebih dekat kepadanya."Mungkin kita harus hanya berfokus pada memiliki bagus waktu keluar sebagai teman daripada mencoba untuk hal yang mustahil," katanya, mencoba untuk menarik tangannya berjarak hanya untuk menemukan dirinya sendiri yang menarik ke depan dan mulut tertutup.Dia menggosok nya bibir atas miliknya beberapa kali sebelum menarik kembali cukup jauh sehingga ia dapat melihat ke dalam mata ketika ia berbicara. "Ini adalah tanggal, Zoe. Jangan mencoba untuk mengecilkan apa kita miliki terjadi hanya karena Anda takut untuk melihat mana ini dipimpin,"katanya lembut."Saya tidak takut?" katanya, segera berharap dia telah membuat dirinya besar mulut tertutup. Serius, ketika dia akan kehilangan kebiasaan itu menjengkelkan karena tidak bisa berbohong? Itu akan berguna di saat-saat seperti ini atau ketika ia mencoba untuk keluar dari tugas juri."Jika itu membuat Anda merasa lebih baik," katanya, berhenti sejenak untuk tekan ciuman cepat terhadap bibirnya yang meninggalkan Dia menginginkan lebih, "Aku hanya sebagai takut seperti Anda, tetapi Anda harus ingat satu hal.""What's that?" she whispered, feeling nervous by the intensity of his gaze, the way he was looking at her as if she made him happy....whole."I'm not going anywhere. We'll take this one day at a time, but we are going to give this a chance, Zoe.""We are?" she asked breathlessly, feeling herself soften as she leaned forward to meet his lips. Maybe they could give this a try, she thought just as someone yelled his name. Sighing heavily, they both leaned back and Trevor gave the man, whom she'd like to point out looked stunned when he spotted her, a quick wave."Zoe,-" Trevor started only to be cut off by the waitress as she placed the largest bowl of clam chowder Zoe had ever seen in front of her with an equally large plate of chicken tenders."I took the liberty of doubling your order," she said, giving Trevor a pointed look."Thank you," he murmured, gesturing for Zoe to eat."Thank you. It looks really great," Zoe said just as the waitress started to walk away, barely able to take her eyes away from the food as her stomach growled viciously, startling the hell out of her.Trevor simply chuckled as he handed her a large spoon. "Don't worry about it, sweetheart. From what I heard, Haley out ate Jason while she was pregnant.""Please tell me you're kidding me," she said, truly horrified at the prospect of eating as much as Jason and that was only for one baby. Really, how much would she need for twins?"I'm afraid not," he said, gesturing once again for her to eat.She eyed him for a moment, giving her food a chance to cool and trying to figure out a way to make sense of everything. One thing she couldn't wrap her mind around was the way he was taking everything. It was a little unnerving actually to have Trevor suddenly declare that he wanted a future with her. She knew it was because of the babies, but he didn't know that and one day he would and she didn't want to be the one to pay when that day came."Why aren't you freaking out about this?" she asked, too curious to put it off for another moment. She ate some of her soup and nearly moaned with pleasure. It was so good and apparently her stomach agreed because it didn't threaten to make her run the hundred yard dash across the restaurant to get to the bathroom."I sort of did freak out when I found out," he admitted sheepishly, gesturing for her to continue to eat when she stopped to frown at him."What happened?" she asked, wishing she'd been there when he found out. Actually, she wished he'd been there to hold her hand when the doctor came back to tell her the news or when they rolled in the sonogram and checked to see how far along she was.Almost three months along.She'd been shocked when they told her and hyperventilating when they mentioned twins. After they left the room she lay in the semi-dark room and tried to wrap her mind around everything. By the time they came to give her something for the pain and announced that they were releasing her she was both nervous and excited about the future, but she'd also been a little frightened that Trevor wouldn't take it well and apparently he hadn't."It was a bit of a shock," he admitted. "When you didn't have your, um," he cleared his throat, looking adorably embarrassed, "your um....," he trailed off, looking at a loss for words."Friend?" she suggested, biting back a smile at the relieved look on his face. When her period didn't show up the first time she hadn't been all that nervous since her periods had become extremely irregular with her diet and they were using protection. It was also one of the things that scared her enough to get off the insane diet she was on because she was afraid of the damage it was causing her body, but now she knew she wasn't giving her babies enough food and she felt like crying."Yes, I thought you were on birth control," he admitted, shaking his head ruefully. "I really was an idiot to assume anything. I should have asked, but I was so damn excited to be with you that I have to admit that I really didn't use my head a lot," he said softly, reaching out to take her free hand. "I'm sorry that I messed this up, Zoe, but you need to know that I will never-""About time you dropped by," Hank, she thought his name was, said as he slapped a hand on the back of Trevor's shoulder, cutting off whatever pointless promise Trevor was about to make. Even though she loved him, he didn't love her and she couldn't allow him to settle for her when she knew he would never be happy."I'm in the middle of something here," Trevor bit out, gesturing to Zoe.Hank? sent her a questioning look, but quickly shrugged it off, probably not giving her a second thought as he turned his attention back to Trevor. "I was asked by that group of lovely women," he said, gesturing to a group of three women, who took that as their cue to send Trevor little flirtatious smiles and waves, "to see if you would like to join us for a drink.""I just told you that I'm in the middle of something here," he said, jaw clenching as he once again gestured her way."It's fine," she said, knowing there really was no point in prolonging the evening. Any delusions she'd once had about having any type of relationship had been effectively squashed. She'd rather just sit here alone and enjoy this tasty meal before she went home to her semi-empty apartment. After nearly five months of dieting she was going to indulge tonight. Hell, she might even get dessert.With ice cream.Yes, she realized she was spiraling into binge eating and was probably on the verge of a major depression, but thankfully this time she had two Bradfords to help her out with the excess calories and hopefully by the time they were born she'd be over Trevor.Okay, that wasn't very likely to happen, but at least by then she wouldn't be able to afford food for herself since she had two Bradfords to feed. It would be fine, because she'd be so busy trying to take care of her babies to think about Trevor.She'd be fine.Really.Now if she could only believe that everything would be okay.

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 2:

Dia benar-benar tidak yakin bagaimana dia akan bertahan kehamilan ini atau yang lebih penting bertahan tiga puluh menit tanpa makanan. Bahwa pil mual telah melakukan keajaiban bagi tubuhnya dan dia ingin, tidak ada yang dibutuhkan, makanan atau dia cukup yakin dia akan mati. "Jika saya memesan hidangan pembuka apakah ada kemungkinan saya bisa mendapatkannya dengan cepat? Aku dua setengah bulan hamil dengan Bradford, "katanya, tidak menyebutkan itu kembar karena pikiran itu benar-benar mulai untuk menakut-nakuti dan dia tidak pernah mengatakan kepada Trevor belum dan tidak ingin dia mencari tahu cara ini. Dia hanya berharap wanita itu mengerti karena dia dekat dengan menangis. Dilihat oleh tampilan yang sedikit kaget di wajah wanita itu dia lakukan. Pelayan menggeleng. "Tidak, kau benar. Anda mungkin tidak akan mampu bertahan menunggu," katanya, mengirim Trevor, yang masih berusaha untuk mendapatkan wanita untuk meninggalkan, silau. "Saya akan membawa Anda keluar semangkuk clam chowder diikuti oleh jari-jari ayam, mereka hanya akan mengambil beberapa menit untuk mempersiapkan. Akan bekerja?" Zoe mengangguk serius. "Kau pahlawan saya." "Aku akan menaruh terburu-buru pada makanan Anda," kata pelayan sebelum berjalan pergi. "Tuhan memberkatimu," kata Zoe, melawan dorongan untuk mencium wanita itu. Dia kelaparan. Dia benar-benar tidak ingat pernah menjadi ini lapar sebelum. Apakah ini bagaimana rasanya menjadi Bradford? dia bertanya-tanya iseng sebagai wanita yang sudah menggoda dengan Trevor menyerbu di huff. "Saya benar-benar menyesal tentang itu," kata Trevor, mendesah sambil mengusap bagian belakang lehernya, mencari frustrasi. "Tidak apa-apa," katanya, mengangkat bahu off. Benar-benar tidak sesuatu yang bisa dilakukan tentang hal itu. Sebanyak dia akan menyukai satu malam yang sempurna dengan dia dia tidak terlalu marah. Itu mungkin yang terbaik yang mereka tidak memiliki malam yang sempurna bersama sehingga dia tidak memiliki sesuatu yang benar-benar indah untuk mengenang lebih dan memiliki "bagaimana jika?" pikiran tentang nanti. "Tidak, itu tidak. Ini adalah kencan pertama kami," katanya, mencapai dan mengambil tangannya ke dalam nya. Dia mencoba menarik tangannya, tapi ia tidak memiliki itu. Berpegang pada tangannya erat, tapi tidak cukup untuk menyakiti, ia bergeser kursinya lebih dekat dengannya. "Mungkin kita hanya harus fokus pada memiliki waktu yang baik sebagai teman daripada mencoba untuk tidak mungkin," katanya, mencoba menariknya tangan pergi hanya untuk menemukan dirinya menarik ke depan dan mulutnya tertutup. Dia menggosok bibirnya lebih miliknya beberapa kali sebelum mundur kembali cukup jauh sehingga ia bisa melihat ke matanya saat ia berbicara. "Ini adalah kencan, Zoe. Jangan mencoba untuk mengecilkan apa yang kita miliki terjadi pada hanya karena Anda takut untuk melihat di mana ini dipimpin," katanya pelan. "Aku tidak takut?" katanya, segera berharap dia telah terus dia menutup mulut besar. Serius, kapan ia akan kehilangan kebiasaan menjengkelkan tidak bisa berbohong? Ini akan berguna pada saat-saat seperti ini atau ketika dia mencoba untuk keluar dari tugas juri. "Jika itu membuat Anda merasa lebih baik," katanya, berhenti sejenak untuk menekan ciuman cepat terhadap bibirnya yang meninggalkan dia menginginkan lebih, "aku 'm seperti takut seperti Anda, tetapi Anda harus ingat satu hal. "" Apa itu? " bisiknya, merasa gugup dengan intensitas tatapannya, cara dia menatapnya seolah-olah dia membuatnya bahagia .... seluruh. "Aku tidak akan kemana-mana. Kami akan mengambil satu hari ini pada satu waktu, tapi kami akan memberikan ini kesempatan, Zoe. "" Kami? " tanyanya terengah-engah, merasa dirinya melembutkan sambil membungkuk ke depan untuk memenuhi bibirnya. Mungkin mereka bisa memberikan ini mencoba, pikirnya seperti seseorang berteriak namanya. Mendesah berat, mereka berdua bersandar dan Trevor memberi pria, yang dia ingin menunjukkan tampak terkejut ketika ia melihat dirinya, gelombang cepat. "Zoe, -" Trevor mulai hanya harus dipotong oleh pelayan saat ia ditempatkan mangkuk terbesar clam chowder Zoe yang pernah dilihat di depannya dengan piring yang sama besar dari ayam tender. "Saya mengambil kebebasan menggandakan pesanan Anda," katanya, memberikan Trevor melihat runcing. "Terima kasih," gumamnya , isyarat untuk Zoe untuk makan. "Terima kasih. Ini terlihat benar-benar hebat," Zoe kata seperti pelayan mulai berjalan pergi, hampir tidak mampu mengambil matanya jauh dari makanan seperti perutnya geram kejam, mengejutkan neraka keluar dari nya . Trevor hanya tertawa kecil sambil menyerahkan sendok besar. "Jangan khawatir tentang hal itu, Sayang. Dari apa yang saya dengar, Haley keluar makan Jason saat dia hamil." "Tolong beritahu saya Anda bercanda," katanya, benar-benar ngeri pada prospek makan sebanyak Jason dan itu hanya untuk satu bayi. Sungguh, betapa dia akan perlu untuk kembar? "Aku takut tidak," katanya, menunjuk sekali lagi baginya untuk makan. Dia menatapnya sejenak, memberikan dia makanan kesempatan untuk mendinginkan dan mencoba untuk mencari tahu cara untuk memahami segala sesuatu. Satu hal yang dia tidak bisa membungkus pikirannya sekitar adalah cara dia mengambil segala sesuatu. Itu agak mengerikan benar-benar memiliki Trevor tiba-tiba menyatakan bahwa ia ingin masa depan dengan dia. Dia tahu itu karena bayi, tetapi ia tidak tahu itu dan suatu hari ia akan dan dia tidak ingin menjadi orang yang membayar ketika hari itu datang. "Kenapa kau tidak panik tentang ini?" tanyanya, terlalu penasaran untuk menundanya sesaat lagi. Dia makan beberapa sup dan hampir mengerang dengan kesenangan. Itu sangat baik dan tampaknya perutnya setuju karena tidak mengancam untuk membuat dia menjalankan ratus yard dasbor di restoran untuk sampai ke kamar mandi. "Aku semacam tidak panik ketika saya menemukan," akunya malu-malu, isyarat baginya untuk terus makan ketika dia berhenti untuk mengerutkan kening padanya. "Apa yang terjadi?" tanyanya, berharap dia berada di sana ketika ia menemukan. Sebenarnya, ia berharap ia berada di sana untuk memegang tangannya saat dokter datang kembali untuk menceritakan berita atau ketika mereka digulung dalam sonogram dan memeriksa untuk melihat seberapa jauh dia. Hampir tiga bulan bersama. Dia sudah terkejut ketika mereka mengatakan dia dan bernapas ketika mereka disebutkan kembar. Setelah mereka meninggalkan ruangan ia berbaring di ruang semi-gelap dan mencoba untuk membungkus pikirannya sekitar segalanya. Pada saat mereka datang untuk memberikan sesuatu untuk rasa sakit dan mengumumkan bahwa mereka merilis dia adalah baik gugup dan bersemangat tentang masa depan, tapi ia juga menjadi sedikit takut bahwa Trevor tidak akan mengambil dengan baik dan tampaknya dia hadn 't. "Itu adalah sedikit kejutan," akunya. "Bila Anda tidak memiliki Anda, um," ia berdeham, mencari adorably malu, "Anda um ....," ia terdiam, melihat sebuah kehilangan kata-kata. "Friend?" dia menyarankan, menggigit kembali tersenyum melihat ekspresi lega di wajahnya. Ketika haid tidak muncul pertama kalinya ia tidak semua yang gugup karena periode-nya telah menjadi sangat tidak teratur dengan diet dan mereka menggunakan perlindungan. Itu juga salah satu hal yang takut dia cukup untuk turun diet gila dia di karena dia takut kerusakan itu menyebabkan tubuhnya, tapi sekarang dia tahu dia tidak memberi bayi-bayinya cukup makanan dan dia merasa seperti menangis. "Ya, saya pikir Anda berada di kontrol kelahiran," akunya sambil menggeleng sedih. "Aku benar-benar idiot untuk menganggap apa-apa. Saya harus bertanya, tapi aku begitu sialan senang bisa dengan Anda bahwa saya harus mengakui bahwa saya benar-benar tidak menggunakan kepala saya banyak," katanya lembut, menjangkau mengambil tangannya yang bebas. "Saya minta maaf bahwa saya mengacaukan ini, Zoe, tetapi Anda perlu tahu bahwa saya akan pernah-" "Tentang waktu Anda turun," Hank, dia pikir namanya, sambil menampar tangan di belakang bahu Trevor, memotong apapun janji sia-sia Trevor hendak membuat. Meskipun dia mencintainya, ia tidak mencintainya dan dia tidak bisa membiarkan dia puas ketika dia tahu dia tidak akan senang. "Aku di tengah-tengah sesuatu di sini," Trevor sedikit keluar, menunjuk ke Zoe. Hank? mengiriminya sebuah pertanyaan lihat, tapi dengan cepat mengangkat bahu, mungkin tidak memberinya berpikir dua sambil mengalihkan perhatiannya kembali ke Trevor. "Saya diminta oleh kelompok perempuan yang indah," katanya, menunjuk ke kelompok tiga wanita, yang menganggap itu sebagai isyarat untuk mengirim Trevor tersenyum genit sedikit dan gelombang, "untuk melihat apakah Anda ingin bergabung dengan kami untuk minum. "" Aku hanya bilang bahwa aku di tengah-tengah sesuatu di sini, "katanya, mengepalkan rahang saat ia sekali lagi menunjuk ke arahnya." Tidak apa-apa, "katanya, mengetahui ada benar-benar ada gunanya memperpanjang malam. Setiap delusi dia pernah punya tentang memiliki jenis hubungan telah efektif tergencet. Dia lebih suka hanya duduk di sini sendirian dan menikmati makanan lezat ini sebelum dia pulang ke apartemennya semi-kosong. Setelah hampir lima bulan dari diet ia akan memanjakan malam ini. Neraka, dia bahkan mungkin mendapatkan makanan penutup. Dengan es krim. Ya, dia menyadari dia spiral ke pesta makan dan mungkin di ambang depresi besar, tapi untungnya kali ini dia memiliki dua Bradfords untuk membantu dia keluar dengan kelebihan kalori dan mudah-mudahan pada saat mereka lahir dia akan lebih Trevor. Oke, itu tidak sangat mungkin terjadi, tapi setidaknya saat itu dia tidak akan mampu membeli makanan untuk dirinya sendiri karena dia memiliki dua Bradfords untuk memberi makan. Ini akan baik-baik saja, karena dia begitu sibuk mengurus bayi untuk berpikir tentang Trevor. Dia baik-baik saja. Benar-benar. Sekarang jika dia bisa hanya percaya bahwa segala sesuatu akan baik-baik saja.