I opened my eyes to the smell of co

I opened my eyes to the smell of coffee, the sound of the dishwasher opening and the clank of dishes. I blinked up to the ceiling, the final remnants of sleep slipping from my brain as the reality of last night hit me.
He’s still here, was my first thought, followed by What the hell happens now?
Last night had come easily; I’d shut off my brain and done what felt good, what I’d wanted. What I’d wanted was him and somehow, he’d wanted me in return. But now, with the sun pouring through the windows and the world awake and breathing outside, I was filled with uncertainty, unsure what our boundaries were or where we stood.
My body was stiff, sore in the most random places. I felt like I’d done a thousand sit-ups. My thighs and shoulders ached. My back was stiff. And between my legs I was throbbing and tender, as if Will had driven into me for hours and hours in the black of night.
Imagine that.
I eased myself off the bed, tiptoed to the bathroom, and carefully closed the door, hissing at the way the latch seemed to click too loudly.
I didn’t want things to be weird between us, or to ruin the easy comfort we’d always had. I didn’t know what I’d do if we lost that.
So with my teeth brushed and hair smoothed, I slipped into a pair of boy shorts and a tank and made my way out to the kitchen, intent on letting him know I could do this and that things didn’t have to change.
He was standing in front of the stove in nothing but black boxers, his back to me, flipping what looked to be pancakes.
“Morning,” I said, crossing the room and making a beeline straight for the coffeepot.
“Morning,” he said, grinning down at me. He leaned over and twisted the fabric of my shirt in his hand, using it to pull me toward him for a quick kiss on the lips. I ignored the tiny, girlish flutter in my stomach and reached for a mug, careful to keep a long stretch of counter between us.
My mother had cooked breakfast for us every Sunday we spent on vacation in this kitchen, and had insisted the room be large enough to accommodate her ever-expanding family. The space was twice the size of any other in the building, with gleaming cherry cabinets and warm tile. Wide windows that overlooked 101st Street took up one wall; a large counter with enough stools for all of us filled another. The wide marble expanse of counter had always felt too big for the apartment, and a waste of space now that it was just me using this as a home. But with the memory of last night playing on a loop in my head, and with so much of his perfectly naked skin on display, I felt like I was in a shoe box, like the walls were closing in and pushing me closer and closer in this strange, sexy man’s direction. I definitely needed some air.
“How long have you been up?” I asked.
He shrugged, the muscles of his shoulders and back flexing with the movement. I could see the edge of the tattoo that wrapped around his ribs. “A while.”
I glanced at the clock. It was early, too early to be awake on a Sunday with no plans, especially after the night we’d had. “Couldn’t sleep?”
He flipped another pancake, placed two others on a plate. “Something like that.”
I poured my coffee, eyes trained on the dark liquid as it filled the mug, the steam as it twisted through a beam of sunlight. The counter was set, placemats and a plate for each of us, glasses of orange juice off to the side. I had a flash of Will with one of his not girlfriends and couldn’t help but wonder if this was part of the well-honed routine: making his ladies breakfast before leaving them in their empty apartments with wobbly legs and dopey smiles.
With a small shake of my head I replaced the carafe, and straightened my shoulders. “I’m glad you’re still here,” I said.
He smiled, and scraped the last bit of batter from the bowl. “Good.”
We stood in comfortable silence while I added sugar and cream, then moved with my coffee to a stool on the other side of the counter. “I mean, I would have felt ridiculous if you’d left. This is easier.”
He flipped the last pancake and spoke to me over his shoulder. “Easier?”
“Less awkward,” I said with a shrug. I knew I needed to keep this casual, keep it from becoming a thing between us. I didn’t want him to think I couldn’t handle it.
“I’m not sure I’m getting you, Hanna.”
“It’s just easier to do this part now, the awkward I’ve seen you naked part, rather than later when we’re trying to remember how we interact with our clothes on.”
I watched him pause, staring down into the empty pan, obviously confused. He hadn’t nodded or laughed, hadn’t thanked me for saying it before he’d had to. And now I was the one clearly confused.
“You don’t think all that highly of me, do you?” he said, finally turning to face me.
“Please. You know I think you practically walk on water. I don’t want you freaking out or thinking I expect you to change anything.”
“I’m not freaking out.”
“I’m just saying that I know last night meant different things for each of us.”
His brows pulled together. “And what was it to you?”
“Amazing? A reminder that even though I failed miserably with Dylan, I can have fun with a man. I can let go, and enjoy it, I know it probably didn’t change who you are, but it feels a little like it changed me. So, thank you.”
Will’s eyes narrowed. “And who exactly am I, do you think?”
I walked over to him and stretched to kiss his chin. His cell phone buzzed where it sat on the counter, the name Kitty lighting up the screen. So that answered that question. I took a deep breath, gave myself a moment for all the pieces to line up in my head.
And then I laughed, nodding to where it continued to vibrate across the counter. “A man who’s good in bed for a reason.”
He frowned, reaching for the phone and shutting it off. “Hanna,” he said, pulling me back toward him. He placed a lingering kiss on my temple. “Last night—”
I sighed at how easily we slotted together, at how perfectly my name was shaped by his mouth. “You don’t have to explain, Will. I’m sorry I made it weird just now.”
“No, I—”
I pressed two fingers to his lips, wincing. “God, you must hate the postsex processing and I don’t need it, I swear. I can handle all of this.”
His eyes searched my face and I wondered what he was looking for. Did he not believe me? I reached for his jaw and kissed him softly, feeling the tension slip from his body.
His hands came to rest on my hips. “I’m glad you’re okay with this,” he said finally. "I am, I promise. No weirdness." "No weirdness." he repeated.

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 1:

Aku membuka mata saya untuk bau kopi, suara mesin cuci piring yang membuka dan dentang hidangan. Saya berkedip sampai langit-langit, sisa-sisa akhir tidur tergelincir dari otak saya sebagai realitas semalam memukul saya.Dia masih di sini, adalah pikiran pertama, diikuti dengan apa yang terjadi sekarang?Tadi malam datang dengan mudah; Aku akan mematikan otak saya dan melakukan apa merasa baik, apa yang telah saya inginkan. Apa yang telah saya inginkan adalah dia dan entah bagaimana, ia telah menginginkan saya kembali. Tapi sekarang, dengan matahari mengalir melalui jendela dan terjaga dan bernapas dunia luar, aku dipenuhi dengan ketidakpastian, tidak yakin apa yang batas-batas kita atau dimana kita berdiri.Tubuh saya adalah kaku, sakit di tempat yang paling acak. Aku merasa seperti saya telah melakukan sit-up seribu. Paha dan bahu saya sakit. Punggung saya adalah kaku. Dan antara kedua kakiku saya berdenyut dan lembut, seolah-olah akan terdorong ke saya selama berjam-jam di hitam malam.Membayangkan bahwa.Aku menyelinap diri dari tempat tidurnya, berjingkat melompat ke kamar mandi, dan hati-hati menutup pintu, mendesis cara kait tampaknya klik terlalu keras.Saya tidak ingin hal-hal yang konyol diantara kita, atau untuk merusak kenyamanan mudah kita selalu punya. Aku tidak tahu apa yang akan saya lakukan jika kita kehilangan itu.Jadi dengan gigi Disikat dan rambut licin, aku menyelinap ke sepasang anak laki-laki celana pendek dan tank dan membuat jalan ke dapur, berniat membiarkan dia tahu saya bisa melakukan hal-hal ini dan itu tidak harus berubah.Dia berdiri di depan kompor di apa-apa kecuali petinju hitam, punggung saya, membalik apa yang tampak menjadi pancake."Pagi," kataku, persimpangan kamar dan berkemas lurus coffeepot."Pagi," katanya, menyeringai turun pada saya. Dia membungkuk dan memutar kain kemeja di tangannya, menggunakannya untuk menarik saya ke arahnya untuk cepat ciuman di bibir. Aku mengabaikan kecil, genit bergetar di perutku dan mencapai untuk cangkir, hati-hati untuk menjaga hamparan panjang counter antara kami.Ibuku memasak sarapan kami setiap hari Minggu kita menghabiskan liburan di dapur ini, dan bersikeras kamar menjadi cukup besar untuk menampung keluarganya terus berkembang. Ruang adalah dua kali ukuran lain di gedung, dengan lemari berkilauan ceri dan hangat ubin. Jendela lebar yang diabaikan 101st Street mengambil salah satu dinding; counter besar dengan bangku cukup bagi kita semua penuh lain. Hamparan luas marmer counter selalu merasa terlalu besar untuk apartemen, dan membuang-buang ruang sekarang bahwa itu hanya aku menggunakan ini sebagai rumah. Tapi dengan memori malam terakhir bermain di lingkaran di kepalaku, dan dengan begitu banyak kulit sempurna telanjang di layar, aku merasa seperti aku berada di sebuah kotak Sepatu, seperti dinding mendekat dan mendorong saya lebih dekat dan lebih dekat dalam arah ini aneh, seksi manusia. Aku pasti membutuhkan udara."Berapa lama Anda telah?" Saya bertanya.Ia mengangkat, otot-otot bahu dan meregangkan kembali dengan gerakan. Aku bisa melihat tepi tato yang dibungkus di sekitar rusuk. "Beberapa waktu."Aku melirik jam. Itu adalah awal, terlalu dini untuk bisa terjaga pada hari minggu dengan ada rencana, terutama setelah malam yang kami miliki. "Tidak bisa tidur?"Ia membalik panekuk lain, ditempatkan dua orang lain di piring. "Sesuatu seperti itu."Saya menuangkan kopi, mata terlatih pada cairan gelap karena mengisi cangkir, uap seperti memutar melalui seberkas sinar matahari. Konter ditetapkan, placemats dan piring untuk masing-masing dari kita, gelas jus jeruk off ke samping. Aku punya flash akan dengan salah satu tidak nya pacar dan tidak bisa membantu tetapi heran jika ini adalah bagian dari rutinitas diasah baik: membuat wanita nya Sarapan sebelum meninggalkan mereka di apartemen mereka kosong dengan kaki goyah dan tersenyum tolol.Dengan kecil menggelengkan kepala saya saya diganti teko dan meluruskan bahu saya. "Aku senang kau masih di sini," kataku.Dia tersenyum, dan tergores bit terakhir adonan dari mangkuk. "Baik."Kami berdiri dalam keheningan nyaman sementara ditambahkan gula pasir dan krim, kemudian pindah dengan kopi ke bangku di sisi lain counter. "Maksudku, aku akan merasa konyol jika Anda telah meninggalkan. Ini lebih mudah."Ia membalik lalu pancake dan berbicara kepada saya atas bahunya. "Lebih mudah?""Kurang canggung," kataku dengan mengangkat bahu. Saya tahu saya diperlukan untuk Jauhkan ini santai, menjaga dari menjadi hal antara kami. Saya tidak ingin dia berpikir aku tidak bisa menangani itu."Saya tidak yakin saya mendapatkan Anda, Hanna."“It’s just easier to do this part now, the awkward I’ve seen you naked part, rather than later when we’re trying to remember how we interact with our clothes on.”I watched him pause, staring down into the empty pan, obviously confused. He hadn’t nodded or laughed, hadn’t thanked me for saying it before he’d had to. And now I was the one clearly confused.“You don’t think all that highly of me, do you?” he said, finally turning to face me.“Please. You know I think you practically walk on water. I don’t want you freaking out or thinking I expect you to change anything.”“I’m not freaking out.”“I’m just saying that I know last night meant different things for each of us.”His brows pulled together. “And what was it to you?”“Amazing? A reminder that even though I failed miserably with Dylan, I can have fun with a man. I can let go, and enjoy it, I know it probably didn’t change who you are, but it feels a little like it changed me. So, thank you.”Will’s eyes narrowed. “And who exactly am I, do you think?”I walked over to him and stretched to kiss his chin. His cell phone buzzed where it sat on the counter, the name Kitty lighting up the screen. So that answered that question. I took a deep breath, gave myself a moment for all the pieces to line up in my head.And then I laughed, nodding to where it continued to vibrate across the counter. “A man who’s good in bed for a reason.”He frowned, reaching for the phone and shutting it off. “Hanna,” he said, pulling me back toward him. He placed a lingering kiss on my temple. “Last night—”I sighed at how easily we slotted together, at how perfectly my name was shaped by his mouth. “You don’t have to explain, Will. I’m sorry I made it weird just now.”“No, I—”I pressed two fingers to his lips, wincing. “God, you must hate the postsex processing and I don’t need it, I swear. I can handle all of this.”His eyes searched my face and I wondered what he was looking for. Did he not believe me? I reached for his jaw and kissed him softly, feeling the tension slip from his body.His hands came to rest on my hips. “I’m glad you’re okay with this,” he said finally. "I am, I promise. No weirdness." "No weirdness." he repeated.