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Honestly, it sounded
insane—as insane as someone breaking into my apartment and taking a picture of me.
I opened my eyes just in time to see a brown bunny rabbit bounce across the lawn below, into the tree line. Well, I guessed it was a rabbit. It was kind of a brown blur. Could’ve been an opossum for all I knew.
Criminy, I couldn’t believe I was at Reece’s place. I just couldn’t let myself read too much into it. Tucking my hair back, I blew out a tired sigh. Even in the silence, surrounded by bouncing bunnies and pretty flowers, it was hard to really grasp what I felt for Reece. My feelings for him were tangled into a web of our past and our present. Lust cultivated over years and . . .
I couldn’t even think it.
Where I could admit I cared for him strongly—I had for a long time—love was scary. I learned that with Charlie. I loved that boy more than anything, and seeing him hurt had killed a part of me when I was sixteen and still was killing me. I couldn’t fall for Reece, not fall that deeply. Not when going to work every day could mean he could be harmed or worse. I flinched, but that was the truth. God, these thoughts were freaking pointless, because—
The French doors opened and Reece stepped out onto the balcony, his sleepy blue gaze finding me. My tummy tumbled as I drank him in. Goodness, he was cute in the morning. Hair all messy and a shadow of brush along his jaw, he was total pinup material.
“Hey,” he said, and one side of his lips quirked up in a lopsided grin.
My own lips responded. It was clear he was still half asleep. “Hey you. I didn’t wake you, did I?”
“I don’t think so.” Lifting an arm, he dragged his fingers through his hair. My eyes got hung up on his bicep and the muscles along the side of his chest. I shifted in the chair, surprised that I could be so visibly aroused by a guy scratching his head. He moved to the seat beside me. “I mean, I woke up and you were gone.” He leaned back in the chair, spreading his thighs as he tipped his head toward me. “I was worried when you weren’t there. You okay?”
My lips parted as his words hummed through me. “Yeah, I just woke up and didn’t want to wake you. You couldn’t have been sleeping for that long.”
His broad shoulders rose in a lazy roll. “I don’t really sleep that much. Just a couple of hours here and there, especially when I’m working.”
I thought about the night on the couch where it had seemed like a nightmare had shaken him awake. “You have to be so tired, though.”
Casting the heavy-hooded eyes to me, he shrugged again. “It’s the same with you, babe. You work crazy-ass hours just like me. You manage. I manage.”
“True,” I murmured, looking out over the lawn. “I like this—the balcony, I mean.” Flushing, I mentally kicked myself. “It’s very private and quiet.”
“I like it, too. Try to come out here at least once a day, drink my coffee.” Out of the corner of my eyes, I saw him raise his arms above his head and stretch. I had to look. I was only human, and goodness gracious, I was so glad I did. His back bowed as bones cracked. The man was pure sin. “It’s a good place to think,” he finished, dropping his arms.
My gaze coasted over the expanse of his chest and taut stomach, down to the fine trail of darker hair that disappeared under the band of his bottoms. “I can . . . um, understand that.”
There was a pause. “I talked to Colton this morning. He’s going to come by soon. I’ll be here while he talks to you.”
A shiver crawled along the nape of my neck, and I pulled the sweater closer. I nodded. “Does he know what happened?”
“Yes.”
I watched a bird flutter past the balcony. “Does he think it’s related to the other stuff?”
“I don’t know. I think he wants to talk to you first before he makes that jump.” He sighed softly. “Seriously, Roxy, you hanging in there?”
That wasn’t an easy question to answer. So much was going on and hanging between us, and everything we needed to talk about I wasn’t ready for. “Charlie’s on a feeding tube,” I said finally, raising my gaze to the blue, cloudless sky. The color was much like Reece’s eyes. “He hated being on that before, so they have had to restrain him, and it’s so hard to see him like that.”
“I’m sorry to hear that.” Genuine sympathy radiated from his voice.
I nodded. “The last time he wouldn’t eat, he ended up having a seizure.”
“I remember that,” he said quietly.
Surprised, I looked at him. “You do?”
He nodded. “Yeah. I remember you talking about it, and I know how close you came to losing him.”
Pain rose as I leaned back in the chair. “I’m so afraid.”
“For Charlie?”
“Yeah,” I whispered, and I bit down on my lip as he reached between us, curving his hand around my arm. It felt like my heart doubled in size. “I’m afraid I’m going to lose him. I really am.”
He squeezed my arm gently. “I wish there was something I could say.”
“I know.” I swallowed the knot in my throat.
His gaze held mine for a moment and then he moved his hand. I wanted to climb into his lap and wrap myself around him like an octopus,

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 1:

Jujur, itu terdengargila — seperti gila sebagai seseorang yang melanggar ke apartemen saya dan mengambil gambar saya.Aku membuka mata saya tepat pada waktunya untuk melihat sebuah cokelat kelinci bounce melintasi halaman rumput di bawah, ke pohon line. Yah, saya menduga itu kelinci. Itu adalah jenis coklat kabur. Sudah bisa opossum untuk semua aku tahu.Criminy, aku tidak percaya saya pada Reece di tempat. Aku hanya tidak bisa membiarkan diriku membaca terlalu banyak ke dalamnya. Menyelipkan rambut saya ke belakang, aku meniup keluar desahan lelah. Bahkan dalam keheningan, dikelilingi oleh memantul kelinci dan bunga-bunga cantik, hal itu sulit untuk benar-benar memahami apa yang saya rasakan untuk Reece. Perasaan saya untuk dia yang kusut menjadi web masa lalu kita dan kita sekarang. Nafsu yang dibudidayakan selama tahun dan...Aku bahkan tidak bisa memikirkan itu.Mana aku bisa mengakui aku peduli untuk dirinya sangat — aku untuk waktu yang lama-cinta itu menakutkan. Saya belajar bahwa Charlie. Aku mencintai anak itu lebih dari apa pun, dan melihat dia terluka telah membunuh bagian saya ketika saya berumur enam belas tahun dan masih membunuh saya. Aku tidak bisa jatuh untuk Reece, tidak jatuh yang sangat. Tidak Kapan pergi bekerja setiap hari bisa berarti ia dapat disakiti atau lebih buruk. Aku meraba, tetapi itu adalah kebenaran. Allah, pikiran ini adalah freaking sia-sia, kerana —Membuka pintu Prancis dan Reece melangkah keluar ke balkon, tatapan biru mengantuk menemukan saya. Perut saya jatuh seperti meminum dia. Kebaikan, ia adalah lucu di pagi hari. Rambut semua berantakan dan bayangan sikat sepanjang rahang beliau, dia adalah total pinup bahan."Hei," katanya, dan salah satu sisi bibirnya quirked up di grin miring.Menanggapi bibir saya sendiri. Itu jelas dia masih setengah tertidur. "Hei Anda. Saya tidak terbangun Anda, bukan?""Saya tidak berpikir begitu." Mengangkat lengan, ia menyeret jarinya melalui rambutnya. Mata saya mendapat digantung pada bicep nya dan otot sepanjang sisi dadanya. Saya bergeser di kursi, terkejut bahwa aku bisa jadi tampak terangsang oleh seorang pria yang menggaruk-garuk kepala. Ia pindah ke kursi di samping saya. "Maksudku, aku terbangun dan kau pergi." Dia bersandar di kursi, menyebarkan pahanya saat ia Tip kepalanya ke arahku. "Saya sangat khawatir ketika Anda tidak ada di sana. Anda baik-baik saja?"Bibir saya berpisah sebagai kata-kata hummed melalui saya. "Ya, aku hanya terbangun dan tidak mau bangun Anda. Anda tidak bisa memiliki tidur selama itu."Bahunya yang lebar naik dalam roll malas. "Saya benar-benar tidak tidur banyak. Hanya beberapa jam di sana-sini, terutama ketika aku bekerja."Aku berpikir tentang malam di sofa mana telah tampaknya seperti mimpi buruk telah terguncang dia terjaga. "Anda harus menjadi sangat lelah, walaupun."Casting berat-berkerudung mata saya, ia mengangkat lagi. "Itu adalah sama dengan Anda, babe. Anda bekerja keledai gila jam seperti saya. Anda mengelola. Aku berhasil.""Benar," saya bersungut, menghadap ke halaman. "Aku seperti ini-balkon, maksudku." Flushing, saya mental menendang diriku. "Itu sangat pribadi dan tenang.""Aku seperti itu, terlalu. Mencoba untuk keluar di sini setidaknya sekali sehari, minum kopi saya." Dari sudut mataku, aku melihat dia mengangkat tangannya di atas kepalanya dan peregangan. Aku harus melihat. Aku hanya manusia, dan kebaikan Astaga, saya sangat senang saya lakukan. Punggung membungkuk sebagai tulang yang retak. Laki-laki adalah murni sin. "Itu adalah tempat yang baik untuk berpikir," ia selesai, menjatuhkan lengannya.Pandangan saya coasted atas hamparan dada dan perut kencang, ke jalur halus rambut gelap yang hilang dalam band pantat nya. "Saya bisa... um, memahami bahwa."Ada jeda. "Saya berbicara dengan Colton pagi ini. Dia akan datang segera. Saya akan di sini sedangkan ia berbicara kepada Anda."Gemetar merangkak sepanjang tengkuk leher saya, dan saya menarik sweter lebih dekat. Aku mengangguk. "Apakah dia tahu apa yang terjadi?""Ya."Aku mengamati burung bergetar melewati balkon. "Apakah dia pikir itu adalah terkait dengan hal-hal lain?""Saya tidak tahu. Saya pikir dia ingin berbicara kepada Anda terlebih dahulu sebelum dia membuat langsung." Dia menghela napas lembut. "Serius, Roxy, Anda menggantung di sana?"Itu bukan pertanyaan yang mudah untuk menjawab. Begitu banyak terjadi dan menggantung antara kami, dan segala sesuatu yang kita perlu berbicara tentang saya tidak siap untuk. "Charlie's pada tabung," kataku akhirnya, meningkatkan pandangan ke langit biru, tak berawan. Warna itu jauh seperti Reece's mata. "Dia benci itu sebelumnya, jadi mereka harus menahan dia, dan begitu sulit untuk melihatnya seperti itu."“I’m sorry to hear that.” Genuine sympathy radiated from his voice.I nodded. “The last time he wouldn’t eat, he ended up having a seizure.”“I remember that,” he said quietly.Surprised, I looked at him. “You do?”He nodded. “Yeah. I remember you talking about it, and I know how close you came to losing him.”Pain rose as I leaned back in the chair. “I’m so afraid.”“For Charlie?”“Yeah,” I whispered, and I bit down on my lip as he reached between us, curving his hand around my arm. It felt like my heart doubled in size. “I’m afraid I’m going to lose him. I really am.”He squeezed my arm gently. “I wish there was something I could say.”“I know.” I swallowed the knot in my throat.His gaze held mine for a moment and then he moved his hand. I wanted to climb into his lap and wrap myself around him like an octopus,