The phone rang but I didn’t answer

The phone rang but I didn’t answer it. I took a moment to compose myself and control my voice.  “Hello?” I said when I answered.
“Turn on your fucking phone.”
I didn’t want to deal with this right now. “Don’t call me.”
“You’re my girlfriend. I’ll call you whenever I feel like it.”
“We broke up.”
He hung up.
I heard the line go dead. I must have really pissed him off. But that was okay because it’s exactly what I wanted. I got back to work and tried to stop thinking about Tony. Minutes later, my office door swung in. Tony stood there, looking angry and insane. He slammed the door and locked it.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” he snapped.
“What’s wrong with me? You’re the one who won’t accept the fact that we’re done.”
He slammed his hand on the desk. When he pulled away, I saw his key. “This belongs to you.”
“I don’t want it.”
“That’s too fucking bad. I gave it to you.”
“Why are you making this so difficult?” I yelled.
“Because you don’t want to break up. I can see it in your eyes.”
“Yes, I do.”
“Why are you doing this?” he snapped. “Why are you pushing me away?”
“Because that’s what people do when they break up!”
He came around the desk and grabbed me. “No.”
“Tony, you need to leave.”
He picked me up and placed me on the desk.
I knew what he was doing. “No!”
Tony held me down and pulled me to the end of the desk. “I’ll do this as many times as it takes.”
“Tony, stop this now!”
He pulled down his jeans then lifted up my dress. “I’ll stop when I know you want me to.” He pulled off my underwear then slipped inside me.
“Fuck you,” I said I rolled me head back.
He rocked into me slowly. “Do you want me to stop?”
I bit my lip while I felt him.
“Tell me you want me to stop.”
I grabbed his forearms and dug my nails into his skin.
Tony stopped moving.
I moaned in frustration.
“Tell me you want me to make love to you.”
I said nothing.
He didn’t move, just staring into my eyes.
I grabbed his hips and started to move against him. “Tony…”
“Yes?”
“Please.”
He moved inside me hard and fast.
I lied back and enjoyed it. The orgasm hit as soon as I let myself go. I knew Theresa and Orlando could hear us but I didn’t care. He bucked inside me when he reached the same threshold. His moaned while he made his final thrusts, coming inside me.
When he pulled out, he grabbed my face and kissed me. “You are mine.”
I said nothing, still breathing heavily.
Tony pulled on his clothes while he stared me down.
“Tony, I want to break up.”
“It didn’t seem like it a second ago.”
“We were just fucking. I would have screwed any other hot guy I saw.”
“I’m having a hard time believing that.”
I fixed my hair and pulled down my dress. “Tony, I mean it. We’re over.”
“I’ll pick you up at seven.”
“Are you even listening to me?”
“Yes, but I’m also ignoring you.”
I glared at him. “Why won’t you accept what I said? If one person wants to break up, you break up. It doesn’t have to be mutual.”
“I’ll accept it when you give me a valid reason. Until then, I know you’re pulling shit out of your ass. I think you’re just scared that I’m going to hurt you so you’d rather be alone than have to deal with that possibility. We were apart for two days and it almost killed you. That’s not a reason to break up. That’s called fighting. All couples do it.”
“You aren’t listening to me,” I said. “I was using you so I could build my company. Now that I have what I want, I don’t need you anymore.”
“You’re a terrible liar.” He walked to the door. “I’ll see you tonight.”
“Tony!”
“What?”
“I mean it. We’re done.”
He stared at me. “We’re never done.” He left my office and shut the door behind him.
I sighed in frustration. Tony was making this impossible.
When I got off work, I didn’t go to my apartment. Instead, I went out for a drink with Layla.
“I broke up with him,” I said.
“Are you okay?”
“No.”
“Why did you do it?”
“Because he’s lost his whole family,” I said. “I can’t let him pick me over them.”
“But he’s only picking because Janet made him.”
“She’s wrong but I can’t let Tony lose everything,” I said.
She shook her head. “I’m not talking to Janet anymore.”
“What?”
“This is unacceptable. You two are in love and she’s ruining that. It’s wrong.”
I shrugged. “What else am I supposed to do?”
“Not give in.”
“It’s not about giving in,” I said. “It’s about what’s best for Tony. You didn’t see him on his birthday. He was totally miserable.”
“I’m surprised Tony accepted the break up.”
“He hasn’t,” I said. “He keeps tracking me down and fucking my brains out, thinking that will change my mind.”
“It would change mine,” Layla said with a smile.
“Well, it isn’t working.”
“It’s because he won’t let Janet control his relationship.”
“I didn’t tell him the real reason,” I said. “I said I was using him for his company.”
“You did?”
“But he doesn’t believe me.”
“Because he knows you,” she said. “You wouldn’t do something like that.”
“I wish Janet thought that.”
“Fuck her,” she snapped. “I don’t care if Kyle is Scott’s brother. I’m done with her.”
“I don’t want that,” I said. “Please don’t ruin your relationship because of me.”
“How can I let my best friend be treated like this?” she said. “No, this bullshit has gone on long enough. “
I smiled. “Well, thank you.”
“I got your back.”
My phone rang and I looked at the screen. It was Tony. I ignored it. He called again. After I ignored it, he called again. I turned it off to avoid the calls altogether.
Layla smiled. “You think that’s going to stop him?”
“I have to get rid of him.”
“You can’t,” she said. “He’s madly in love with you. He’ll never let you go.”
Layla’s phone rang and she answered it. “Hey, babe.” She stirred her drink while she listened. “At Tully’s. Why?” She paused. “Yeah, she’s here.”
I narrowed my eyes in suspicion.
“Hello?” She looked at the phone. “Well, that was weird. He didn’t even say bye.”
I sighed. “Tony.”
She smiled. “I told you he would track you down.”
“I should go before he gets here.”
“And go where?” she asked. “Your apartment? He’ll break down the door.”
“Can I stay at your place?”
“I don’t want him to break down my door.”
I sighed. “I’ll figure it out.” I turned to leave the table and saw Tony walk inside. “Holy shit, he’s fast.”
Layla looked amused. “He should be in the CIA.”
When Tony saw me, his face lit up in a rage.
“Oh great,” I said sarcastically.
“I think I’m going to go…”
Tony marched to me then grabbed my hip. “Why does my sister think we’re broken up?” he said without preamble.
“Because we are.”
He narrowed his eyes. “That’s why you broke up with me. Because she’s making you.”
“She isn’t making me,” I said.
“It sounds like it.”
“Tony, you are totally miserable without your family.”
“I’m miserable that my sister, the person I held in the highest honor, is being a fucking bitch. That’s what I’m miserable about. Breaking up with me isn’t going to change that.”
“I can’t be the reason you lose your family…I can’t.”
“You aren’t,” he said. “Janet is.”
“Tony, this isn’t working. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t give into her. I know she’s your friend—”
“She isn’t my friend,” I said. “And I never want to be her friend again.”
“Then don’t do this.”
“I have to. You can always find a new girlfriend. You can’t find another family.”
“You are my family,” he said.
My eyes softened. “Don’t make this harder for me.”
“No, I’m going to. This is a stupid reason to break up. It changes nothing.”
“Tony, I love you. I have to do what’s best for you.”
“Losing you isn’t what’s best for me.”
I averted my gaze.
“So this is it?” he asked sadly.
“Yes.”
His eyes lost their light. His jaw was tense. He ran his fingers through his hair then took a deep breath, his eyes starting to turn red. “Okay.”
That caught me by surprise. “Okay?”
“You told me the real reason. If that’s what you want, I have to accept it.” He didn’t look at me.
I wasn’t expecting him to give up.
“Goodbye, Cassie.” He turned around and left, leaving me standing in the bar alone.

19
This was the hardest breakup I’d ever endured. Even when Danny cheated on me, it was nothing compared to this. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t move. I went to work but hardly got anything done. Orlando and Theresa were sympathetic and gave me space. I didn’t speak to anyone because I didn’t have anything to say.
Tony hadn’t contact me in any way. A part of me hoped he would break down my door and take me on my kitchen table, saying he would never let me go. I never hated anyone in my life, but I was starting to hate Janet. Tony was the best thing that ever happened to me. I lost him due to no fault of my own.
The days went by but it didn’t get better. I almost called him a few times but I stayed strong and didn’t make the call. I wondered what he was doing. I wondered if he was seeing anyone. The thought made me sick to my stomach. It was hard to sleep in my bed because it still smelled like him. Instead of bringing me comfort, it brought me tears. I would wash them but I was afraid to let him go. I wasn’t ready to.
Layla came over and comforted me as much as she could. Kyle was there too. They were the only friends I had that understood my pain. We never spoke about Tony, and Janet was never mentioned. There was a huge elephant in the room that no one addressed.
Tony still did work for my company but everything was relayed through Victoria. She comforted me about the breakup. I knew she wanted him but she seemed genuinely sympathetic. Perhaps it was because Tony had rejected her completely.
I took a cab by his building on the way to work and on the way home. I hoped I would get a glimpse of him on the sidewalk or getting into a cab. It was pathetic but I missed him so much.

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 1:

Telepon berdering tetapi tidak menjawabnya. Aku mengambil waktu untuk menenangkan diri dan mengontrol suara saya. "Halo?" Saya katakan ketika saya menjawab."Menghidupkan telepon sialan."Aku tidak ingin berurusan dengan hak ini sekarang. "Jangan Panggil aku.""Kau pacar saya. Saya akan menelepon Anda setiap kali aku merasa seperti itu.""Kita pecah."Dia menutup telepon.Aku mendengar garis pergi mati. Saya harus memiliki benar-benar marah kepadanya. Tapi itu baik-baik saja karena itu adalah persis apa yang saya inginkan. Saya kembali bekerja dan mencoba untuk berhenti memikirkan Tony. Menit kemudian, pintu kantor berayun di. Tony berdiri di sana, melihat marah dan gila. Dia membanting pintu dan menguncinya."Apa sih salah dengan Anda?" ia tersentak."Apa salah dengan saya? Anda yang tidak akan menerima kenyataan bahwa kita sudah selesai."Ia membanting tangannya di atas meja. Ketika ia menarik diri, aku melihat key-nya. "Ini milik Anda.""Saya tidak ingin ini.""Itu terlalu sialan buruk. Saya memberikannya kepada Anda.""Mengapa Anda membuat ini begitu sulit?" Aku berteriak."Karena Anda tidak ingin untuk memecah. Aku bisa melihatnya di mata Anda.""Ya, saya lakukan.""Mengapa Anda melakukan ini?" ia tersentak. "Mengapa Anda mendorong saya pergi?""Karena itu adalah apa yang orang lakukan ketika mereka break up!"Dia datang di sekitar meja dan menyambar saya. "Tidak.""Tony, Anda perlu meninggalkan."Dia mengangkatku dan menempatkan saya di atas meja.Aku tahu apa yang dia lakukan. "Tidak!"Tony memegang saya dan menarikku ke ujung meja. "Aku akan melakukan hal ini sebanyak yang diperlukan.""Tony, menghentikan ini sekarang!"Ia ditarik jeans-nya kemudian mengangkat pakaian saya. "Aku akan berhenti ketika saya tahu kau ingin aku." Ia melepas pakaian saya kemudian menyelinap dalam diriku."Bercinta Anda," Aku berkata aku memutar saya kembali kepala.Dia mengguncang saya perlahan-lahan. "Apakah Anda ingin saya untuk berhenti?"Aku sedikit bibir saya sementara aku merasa dia."Tell me Anda ingin saya untuk berhenti."Aku menyambar lengan nya dan menggali kuku saya ke kulitnya.Tony berhenti bergerak.Saya mengerang frustrasi."Katakan padaku kau ingin aku membuat cinta untuk Anda."Aku berkata apa-apa.Ia tidak bergerak, hanya menatap ke mata saya.Aku menyambar pinggul dan mulai bergerak melawan dirinya. "Tony...""Ya?""Please."Ia pindah dalam diriku keras dan cepat.Aku berbohong kembali dan menikmatinya. Orgasme memukul segera setelah aku membiarkan diriku pergi. Aku tahu Theresa dan Orlando bisa mendengar kita tapi aku tidak peduli. Dia bucked dalam diri saya ketika ia mencapai batas sama. Dia mengerang sementara ia membuat tekanan akhir nya, datang dalam diriku.Ketika ia ditarik, dia meraih wajahku dan mencium saya. "Engkau adalah milikku."Aku berkata apa-apa, masih bernapas berat.Tony ditarik pakaiannya saat ia menatap saya."Tony, saya ingin untuk memecah.""Itu tidak tampak seperti itu kedua yang lalu.""Kami telah hanya sialan. Saya akan memiliki screwed pria panas lainnya yang kulihat.""Saya memiliki waktu yang sulit percaya itu."Aku tetap rambutku dan ditarik baju saya. "Tony, maksud saya itu. Kami sudah lebih dari.""Aku akan menjemput Anda di tujuh.""Apakah Anda bahkan mendengarkan saya?""Ya, tapi aku juga mengabaikan Anda."Saya melotot padanya. "Mengapa Anda tidak akan menerima apa yang saya katakan? Jika seseorang ingin putus, Anda putus. Itu tidak harus saling.""Aku akan menerimanya ketika Anda memberi saya alasan yang sah. Sampai saat itu, saya tahu Anda sedang menarik kotoran dari keledai Anda. Aku rasa kau hanya takut bahwa aku akan menyakiti Anda sehingga Anda lebih suka menjadi sendirian daripada harus berurusan dengan kemungkinan itu. Kami terpisah selama dua hari dan it hampir killed Anda. Itu bukanlah alasan untuk putus. Yang disebut pertempuran. Semua pasangan melakukannya.""Anda tidak mendengarkan kepada saya," kataku. "Saya menggunakan Anda sehingga saya bisa membangun perusahaan saya. Sekarang bahwa saya memiliki apa yang saya inginkan, saya tidak perlu Anda lagi.""Kau pembohong mengerikan." Dia berjalan ke pintu. "Aku akan melihat Anda malam ini.""Tony!""Apa?""Maksudku itu. Kami sudah selesai."Ia menatap saya. "Kita tidak pernah selesai." Ia meninggalkan kantor saya dan menutup pintu di belakangnya.Saya menghela napas frustrasi. Tony membuat ini mungkin.Ketika aku bekerja, aku tidak pergi ke apartemen saya. Sebaliknya, aku pergi untuk minum dengan Layla."Aku putus dengan dia," kataku."Apakah Anda baik-baik saja?""Tidak.""Mengapa Anda melakukan itu?""Karena dia telah kehilangan keseluruhan keluarganya," kataku. "Aku tidak bisa membiarkan dia menjemput saya atas mereka.""Tapi dia hanya memetik karena Janet membuatnya.""Dia salah tapi aku tidak bisa membiarkannya Tony kehilangan segalanya," kataku.Ia menggelengkan kepalanya. "Aku tidak berbicara untuk Janet lagi.""Apa?""Ini tidak dapat diterima. Anda yang dua adalah cinta dan dia adalah merusak itu. Hal ini salah."Aku mengangkat bahu. "Apa lagi yang harus saya lakukan?""Tidak memberikan dalam.""Hal ini tidak tentang menyerah," kataku. "Ini adalah tentang apa yang terbaik untuk Tony. Anda tidak melihat dia pada hari ulang tahunnya. Dia adalah benar-benar menyedihkan.""Saya terkejut Tony diterima break up.""Dia tidak," kataku. "Dia terus melacak saya dan sialan otak saya keluar, berpikir bahwa akan berubah pikiran.""Itu akan mengubah saya," Layla berkata dengan senyum."Yah, itu tidak bekerja.""Itu adalah karena ia tidak akan membiarkan Janet mengontrol hubungan.""Aku tidak mengatakan alasan yang sebenarnya," kataku. "Saya mengatakan saya menggunakan dia untuk perusahaannya.""Anda lakukan?""Tapi ia tidak percaya saya.""Karena dia tahu Anda," katanya. "Anda tidak akan melakukan sesuatu seperti itu.""Saya berharap Janet berpikir bahwa.""Fuck dia," yang ia tersentak. "Saya tidak peduli jika Kyle adalah saudara Scott. Aku sudah selesai dengannya.""Saya tidak ingin bahwa," kataku. "Tolong jangan merusak hubungan Anda karena saya.""Bagaimana saya bisa membiarkan sahabatku diperlakukan seperti ini?" katanya. "Tidak, omong kosong ini telah berlangsung lama cukup."Aku tersenyum. "Yah, terima kasih.""Aku punya punggung Anda."Telepon saya berdering dan aku memandang layar. Itu Tony. Aku mengabaikan itu. Dia menelepon lagi. Setelah saya mengabaikannya, ia disebut lagi. Aku mematikannya untuk menghindari panggilan sama sekali.Layla tersenyum. "Anda berpikir itu akan menghentikannya?""Aku harus menyingkirkannya.""Anda tidak bisa," katanya. "Dia adalah tergila-gila cinta dengan Anda. Dia akan pernah membiarkan engkau pergi."Layla's telepon berdering dan dia menjawabnya. "Hei, sayang." Dia diaduk minuman nya sementara ia mendengarkan. "At Tully's. Kenapa?" Dia berhenti. "Ya, dia adalah di sini."Saya mempersempit mataku di kecurigaan."Halo?" Dia melihat pada telepon. "Yah, itu aneh. Dia tidak bahkan mengatakan bye."Saya menghela napas. "Tony."Dia tersenyum. "Aku bilang dia akan melacak Anda.""Aku harus pergi sebelum dia sampai di sini.""Dan pergi ke mana?" Dia bertanya. "Apartemen Anda? Dia akan mendobrak pintu.""Saya bisa tinggal di tempat Anda?""Saya tidak ingin dia untuk mendobrak pintu saya."Saya menghela napas. "Aku akan mencari tahu." Aku menoleh ke meninggalkan meja dan melihat Tony masuk ke dalamnya. "Kudus kotoran, ia cepat."Layla memandang geli. "Ia harus di CIA."Ketika Tony melihat saya, wajahnya menyala dalam kemarahan."Oh besar," kataku sinis."Saya pikir saya akan pergi..."Tony berbaris untuk saya kemudian meraih pinggul. "Mengapa kakak saya berpikir kita sedang patah?" katanya tanpa basa-basi."Karena kita."Ia menyipitkan mata. "Itu sebabnya Anda putus dengan saya. Karena dia membuat Anda.""Dia tidak membuat saya," kataku."Kedengarannya seperti itu.""Tony, Anda benar-benar menyedihkan tanpa keluarga Anda."“I’m miserable that my sister, the person I held in the highest honor, is being a fucking bitch. That’s what I’m miserable about. Breaking up with me isn’t going to change that.”“I can’t be the reason you lose your family…I can’t.”
“You aren’t,” he said. “Janet is.”
“Tony, this isn’t working. I’m sorry.”
“Don’t give into her. I know she’s your friend—”
“She isn’t my friend,” I said. “And I never want to be her friend again.”
“Then don’t do this.”
“I have to. You can always find a new girlfriend. You can’t find another family.”
“You are my family,” he said.
My eyes softened. “Don’t make this harder for me.”
“No, I’m going to. This is a stupid reason to break up. It changes nothing.”
“Tony, I love you. I have to do what’s best for you.”
“Losing you isn’t what’s best for me.”
I averted my gaze.
“So this is it?” he asked sadly.
“Yes.”
His eyes lost their light. His jaw was tense. He ran his fingers through his hair then took a deep breath, his eyes starting to turn red. “Okay.”
That caught me by surprise. “Okay?”
“You told me the real reason. If that’s what you want, I have to accept it.” He didn’t look at me.
I wasn’t expecting him to give up.
“Goodbye, Cassie.” He turned around and left, leaving me standing in the bar alone.

19
This was the hardest breakup I’d ever endured. Even when Danny cheated on me, it was nothing compared to this. I couldn’t sleep, I couldn’t eat, I couldn’t move. I went to work but hardly got anything done. Orlando and Theresa were sympathetic and gave me space. I didn’t speak to anyone because I didn’t have anything to say.
Tony hadn’t contact me in any way. A part of me hoped he would break down my door and take me on my kitchen table, saying he would never let me go. I never hated anyone in my life, but I was starting to hate Janet. Tony was the best thing that ever happened to me. I lost him due to no fault of my own.
The days went by but it didn’t get better. I almost called him a few times but I stayed strong and didn’t make the call. I wondered what he was doing. I wondered if he was seeing anyone. The thought made me sick to my stomach. It was hard to sleep in my bed because it still smelled like him. Instead of bringing me comfort, it brought me tears. I would wash them but I was afraid to let him go. I wasn’t ready to.
Layla came over and comforted me as much as she could. Kyle was there too. They were the only friends I had that understood my pain. We never spoke about Tony, and Janet was never mentioned. There was a huge elephant in the room that no one addressed.
Tony still did work for my company but everything was relayed through Victoria. She comforted me about the breakup. I knew she wanted him but she seemed genuinely sympathetic. Perhaps it was because Tony had rejected her completely.
I took a cab by his building on the way to work and on the way home. I hoped I would get a glimpse of him on the sidewalk or getting into a cab. It was pathetic but I missed him so much.