“To Boddah”Speaking from the tongue

“To Boddah”

Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand. All the warnings from the punk rock 101 courses over the years, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, the ethics involved with independence and the embracement of your community has proven to be very true. I haven’t felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music along with reading and writing for too many years now.

I feel guilty beyond words about these things. For example when we’re backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowd begins, it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seem to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd, which is somehting I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending as if I’m having 100% fun.

Sometimes I feel as if I should have a punch-in time clock before I walk out on stage. I’ve tried everything within my power to appreciate it (and I do, God believe me I do, but it’s not enough). I appreciate the fact that I and we have affected and entertained a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists who only appreciate things when they’re gone. I’m too sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order to regain the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our last 3 tours, I’ve had a much better appreciation for all the people I’ve known personally and as fans of our music, but I still can’t get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There’s good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. The sad little sensitive, unappreciative, Pisces, Jesus man. Why don’t you just enjoy it? I don’t know! I have a goddess of a wife who sweats ambition and empathy and a daughter who reminds me too much of what I used to be, full of love and joy, kissing every person she meets because everyone is good and will do her no harm.

And that terrifies me to the point where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miseraable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become. I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody, baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out then to fade away. Peace, Love, Empathy. Kurt Cobain.

Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your altar

Please keep going Courtney,

for Frances.

for her life will be so much happier

without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU

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"Untuk Boddah"Berbicara dari lidah bodoh berpengalaman yang jelas lebih suka menjadi emasculated, kekanak-kanakan mengeluh-ee. Catatan ini harus cukup mudah untuk memahami. Semua peringatan dari punk rock 101 kursus selama bertahun-tahun, sejak pengenalan pertama saya, harus kami katakan, etika terlibat dengan kemerdekaan dan embracement komunitas Anda telah terbukti sangat benar. Aku belum merasakan kegembiraan mendengarkan serta menciptakan musik bersama dengan membaca dan menulis terlalu banyak tahun sekarang.Aku merasa bersalah melampaui kata-kata tentang hal ini. Misalnya ketika kita berada di belakang panggung dan lampu pergi dan deru manik kerumunan mulai, itu tidak mempengaruhi saya dengan cara di mana ia lakukan untuk Freddie Mercury, yang tampaknya cinta, menikmati dan kasih adorasi dari kerumunan, yang somehting saya benar-benar mengagumi dan iri. Faktanya adalah, saya tidak dapat membodohi Anda, salah satu dari Anda. Ini hanya tidak adil untuk Anda atau saya. Kejahatan terburuk yang dapat saya pikirkan akan merobek orang dengan berpura-pura berpura-pura seolah-olah aku sedang bersenang-senang 100%.Kadang-kadang saya merasa seolah-olah saya harus memiliki pukulan-in jam waktu sebelum saya berjalan keluar di atas panggung. Aku sudah mencoba segalanya dalam kekuatan saya menghargai itu (dan saya lakukan, Tuhan percayalah aku melakukan, tapi tidaklah cukup). Saya menghargai kenyataan bahwa saya dan kami telah terkena dan menjamu banyak orang. Aku harus menjadi salah satu orang narsisis yang hanya menghargai hal-hal ketika mereka pergi. Aku terlalu sensitif. Saya perlu sedikit mati rasa untuk mendapatkan antusiasme saya pernah sebagai seorang anak. Pada terakhir 3 kami Wisata, aku punya banyak penghargaan yang lebih baik bagi semua orang yang saya kenal secara pribadi dan sebagai penggemar musik kami, tapi aku masih tidak bisa lebih frustrasi, rasa bersalah dan empati untuk masing. Ada yang baik dalam kita dan saya pikir saya hanya mengasihi orang-orang terlalu banyak, begitu banyak bahwa itu membuat saya merasa terlalu sialan sedih. Sedih sedikit sensitif, tidak menghargai, Pisces, laki-laki Yesus. Mengapa tidak Anda hanya menikmati itu? Saya tidak tahu! Aku punya Dewi istri yang berkeringat ambisi dan empati dan seorang putri yang mengingatkan saya terlalu banyak dari apa yang saya digunakan untuk menjadi, penuh cinta dan sukacita, mencium setiap orang dia bertemu karena semua orang baik dan akan melakukan nya tidak membahayakan.And that terrifies me to the point where I can barely function. I can’t stand the thought of Frances becoming the miseraable, self-destructive, death rocker that I’ve become. I have it good, very good, and I’m grateful, but since the age of seven, I’ve become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along and have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your letters and concern during the past years. I’m too much of an erratic, moody, baby! I don’t have the passion anymore, and so remember, it’s better to burn out then to fade away. Peace, Love, Empathy. Kurt Cobain.Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your altarPlease keep going Courtney,for Frances.for her life will be so much happierwithout me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU