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Jodha's heart wracked seeing his profound painful condition... When their eyes met, she instantly felt mellowness and intense grief in it...she knew he has realized his mistake... but seeing him repenting in his dream and sobbing like a little child wracked stones in her heart... emotions again started to flood in her heart... his muttering increased with very clear loud tone... "I am a cruel heartless king, everyone hates me... Jalaluddin Mohammad failed" his entire body started to tremble and shiver. When she realized he is not only repenting for her but he is completely shattered knowing his failure... She had no strength left to fight with herself... Seeing her love in so much grief was more painful for her than him. She let go of her pain and anger and wrapped her arms softly and carefully around him and then kissed on his forehead and cheeks and whispered in his ears "Jalal, I love you so much... I can't live without you..."

As soon as he felt her warmth and nearness he slowly calmed down... She hugged him until he felt peace again. She was feeling so feeble in front of her heart.

She sat next to him while staring at him constantly... there was a debate going on between her heart and mind... but after many days she felt first time she kneeled down against her love... She cursed herself for giving up her self respect... Time ticked tocked slowly... she regained her control over her weak heart. She reminisced every moment since they met... His brutality... cruelty... His intense love and care, everything came in front her eyes... She completely got lost in their beautiful moments once again but soon sweetness followed by extreme bitterness... Slowly her mind and heart both were coming out of isolation state.

Suddenly she felt Jalal's little movement... swiftly, she ran to the gate and instructed the guards to call Rukaiya begum and Mariam Makhani urgently... then she instructed his maids to bring mild khichdi (Rice and lentil boiled mixed without spices) for him.

Hamida and Rukaiya both came running to the chamber... Jodha quickly got up from the bed so Rukaiya could sit next him. Hamida noticed this but didn't say a word... Jodha went to the backside corner of his bed so she can see him but he can't... Slowly Jalal opened his eyes and saw Rukaiya sitting next to him holding his hand and Hamida standing next to him... Jalal's eyes were looking for Jodha... Rukaiya asked him "Kesa lag raha hai Jalal... (How are you feeling Jalal)"

Jalal replied painfully "bahut dard hai Rukaiya... hamara hath hil bhi nahi raha hamse... (Pain is unbearable Rukaiya... Feels like someone has clutched my hands in his grip, I can't even move my hand a bit)"

Hamida sympathetically replied "Don't worry my child, you will get cured in one week but it is very important that you take care of yourself properly and rest."

Jalal genuinely smiled and replied politely "Ji Ammi jaan (Yes, Ammi Jaan)" few seconds later he requested "Can I get some water? I am feeling extremely thirsty."

Hamida requested Jodha who was standing next to the water jug. "Jodha my child, Can you please give water to Jalal???"

Jodha unwillingly replied in a dim tone "Ji Ammi jaan..."

Jalal realized she was standing behind his bed in the corner... he was so much in pain and was not in a condition to move even a bit... but as soon as he heard her voice... his ears started ringing with music... tons of energy got filled inside him... He moved his body and face just to see her one gaze.

Hamida anxiously said "Jalal, What are you doing??? don't move... relax ... Jodha is bringing water for you..."

After realizing his impatience, he quickly controlled himself... she got glass of water and came to the other side of the bed where Rukaiya was sitting...she forwarded her hand and gave the glass of water to Rukaiya to feed him and moved in the corner without looking at him.

Jalal looked at her sadly with deep sorrow and guilt on his face. Jodha could sense his penetrating gaze at her but she didn't budge at all and stubbornly didn't lift her eyes.

Rukaiya and Hamida gave support to Jalal to sit... Rukaiya forwarded her hand with glass of water towards his mouth.

Jalal slowly pushed away the glass and said in requesting tone "Rukaiya, I don't mean to hurt you but I will eat or drink only from Jodha's hand... Hope you understand!"

Rukaiya's heart scorched painfully but she smiled blankly and got up from there.

Jodha involuntarily came near him and took the glass of water from the table and forwarded her hand with glass while looking at the other side, she decided not to look straight in his eyes...He drank the water holding her hand without breaking his gaze at her.

Hamida saw Jodha's uneasiness and Jalal's extreme guilt. She realized both of them needed to spend some time together. She said in loud and clear powerful instructive voice "Malika E Hindustand, Jodha begum... It is time to fulfill your duties... I am giving you Jalal's responsibility, I want you to stay with him until he is completely cured."

Hamida knew well, Jodha will feel forceful but she had no choice left... Jodha needed Jalal more than Jalal needed her... Hamida was extremely threatened by Jodha's extreme isolation... Even after her orders, She politely refused to come out and stayed inside the chamber for days... Day by Day the way, she was changing and detaching from everyone...it was much scarier than Jalal's condition... She realized when she saw her extreme worries for Jalal and for a while she forgot everything including herself, at that time she realized Jodha's cure is only Jalal.

Jodha looked at Hamida with questionable face why me? Hamida ignored her gaze and stubbornly waited for her response. At last, Jodha gave up and with teary eyes she sadly replied "As you wish Mariam Makani, I will follow your order." She sounded sad...bitter and sarcastic.

Jalal didn't want to take advantage of the situation... He didn't want to hurt her more than he already had... He gloomily said "Ammi Jaan, I will manage with maids... Please I am requesting you, don't force Jodha begum against her wish. Please don't punish her for my sake..."

Jodha finally lifted her isolated eyes and looked at him directly while responding "Shahenshah, hume koi aapatti nahi hai, hum apna patni dharm nibhayenge... (Shahenshah, I have no problem taking care of you and it's my duty to look after you when you need me.)" Her eyes had no expression... she sounded extremely calm... She didn't seem upset, happy, sorrow, angery, nothing... just nil... Seeing her extremely calm Jalal again got scared... He wanted to apologize to her for his behavior immediately...He wanted to see her pleasant smile on her face.

Jalal politely requested "Ammi jaan, hum Jodha begum se ekant mein baat karna chahte hai... (Ammi Jaan, I would like to talk to Jodha begum in private.)"

Hamida also felt that was necessary, she smiled at Jalal and told Rukaiya to come with her.

Finally Jodha and Jalal were alone in the chamber... Jodha was standing next to his bed... her eyes were lowered down. There was dreadful silence in the chamber... It took him more than a minute to decide where to start from... He slowly forwarded his hand and kept it on her palm... but Jodha instantly pulled her palm away from him...The way she pulled her hand, he got his answer... He knew he has lost her forever... his heart was suddenly filled with enormous pain... he felt like crying out loud... his words got stuck in his throat... finally without saying a word his tears started to flood out... Jalal's eyes stuck at her as if he was begging for her mercy... Jodha was still sitting there with lowered eyes... He knew she is not going to forgive him but he needed to apologies for his cruelty... After scrambling words he gathered his strength... At last words got freedom which came out brokenly from his mouth with tears "Jo..dha... Hume maaf kardo... humse phir se gunah ho gaya... hum ne aapko diwan e khaas me beizzat kiya..." (Jodha...Please forgive me... I have again made a big mistake...what I did was s sin... the biggest offence... I have humiliated and insulted you in Diwane Khaas...")

Before Jalal could say anything further... Jodha stopped him in between and bitterly replied "Shahenshah, Aap Aaram farmaye aap ka swasthya thik nahi... aapko koi avashyakta ho toh hamein aawaz dijiyega hum wahan par baithe hain.

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Hati Jodha yang didera melihat kondisi yang menyakitkan yang mendalam ... Saat mata mereka bertemu, ia langsung merasa kematangan dan kesedihan yang intens di dalamnya ... ia tahu ia telah menyadari kesalahannya ... tapi melihat dia bertobat dalam mimpinya dan menangis seperti sedikit anak didera batu di hatinya ... emosi lagi mulai banjir di hatinya ... nya bergumam meningkat dengan nada keras sangat jelas ... "Saya seorang raja yang kejam tak berperasaan, semua orang membenci saya ... Jalaluddin Mohammad gagal" nya Seluruh tubuh mulai gemetar dan menggigil. Ketika ia menyadari bahwa ia tidak hanya bertobat baginya tapi dia benar-benar hancur mengetahui kegagalannya ... Dia tidak punya kekuatan tersisa untuk bertarung dengan dirinya sendiri ... Melihat cintanya dalam begitu banyak kesedihan itu lebih menyakitkan baginya daripada dia. Dia biarkan pergi dari rasa sakit dan kemarahan dan memeluk lembut dan hati-hati di sekelilingnya dan kemudian mencium kening dan pipinya dan berbisik di telinganya "Jalal, aku sangat mencintaimu ... aku tidak bisa hidup tanpa Anda .. . " Begitu ia merasa kehangatan dan kedekatan dia perlahan-lahan tenang ... Dia memeluknya sampai ia merasakan kedamaian lagi. Dia merasa begitu lemah di depan hatinya. Dia duduk di sampingnya sambil menatapnya terus ... ada perdebatan yang terjadi antara hati dan pikirannya ... tapi setelah beberapa hari dia merasa pertama kali dia berlutut terhadap cintanya ... Dia mengutuk dirinya sendiri karena menyerah menghormati dirinya ... Waktu berdetak tocked perlahan ... dia kembali kontrol atas dirinya lemah jantung nya. Dia kenang setiap saat sejak mereka bertemu ... kebrutalan-Nya ... kekejaman ... cinta yang intens Nya dan perawatan, semuanya datang di depan matanya ... Dia benar-benar tersesat di saat-saat indah mereka sekali lagi tapi segera manis diikuti oleh ekstrim kepahitan ... Perlahan pikiran dan hati keduanya keluar dari negara isolasi. Tiba-tiba ia merasa sedikit gerakan Jalal itu ... cepat, ia berlari ke pintu gerbang dan memerintahkan para penjaga untuk memanggil Rukaiya begum dan Mariam Makhani segera ... kemudian dia diinstruksikan pelayan untuk membawa khichdi ringan (Rice dan lentil direbus campuran rempah-rempah tanpa) untuknya. Hamidah dan Rukaiya keduanya berlari ke ruangan ... Jodha segera bangkit dari tempat tidur sehingga Rukaiya bisa duduk dia berikutnya. Hamidah melihat ini tapi tidak mengatakan sepatah kata pun ... Jodha pergi ke sudut belakang tempat tidurnya sehingga ia bisa melihat dia tapi dia tidak bisa ... Perlahan Jalal membuka matanya dan melihat Rukaiya duduk di sampingnya memegang tangannya dan Hamidah berdiri di sampingnya ... mata Jalal yang sedang mencari Jodha ... Rukaiya bertanya "Kesa lag raha hai Jalal ... (Bagaimana perasaan Anda Jalal)" jawab Jalal menyakitkan "bahut dard hai Rukaiya ... Hamara Maha hil bhi nahi raha Hamse ... (Nyeri tak tertahankan Rukaiya ... Merasa seperti seseorang telah mencengkeram tangan saya di genggamannya, aku bahkan tidak bisa menggerakkan tangan saya sedikit) " Hamidah simpatik menjawab "Jangan khawatir anak saya , Anda akan sembuh dalam satu minggu tapi sangat penting bahwa Anda menjaga diri dengan baik dan beristirahat. " Jalal benar tersenyum dan menjawab dengan sopan "Ji Ammi jaan (Ya, Ammi Jaan)" Beberapa detik kemudian ia meminta "Bisakah saya mendapatkan air? Saya merasa sangat haus. " Hamidah meminta Jodha yang berdiri di samping kendi air. "Jodha anak saya, Tolong beri air Jalal ???" Jodha enggan menjawab dengan nada redup "Ji Ammi jaan ..." Jalal menyadari bahwa ia sedang berdiri di belakang tempat tidur di sudut ... dia begitu banyak rasa sakit dan tidak dalam kondisi untuk bergerak bahkan sedikit ... tapi begitu dia mendengar suaranya ... telinganya mulai berdering dengan musik ... ton energi mendapat diisi dalam dirinya ... Dia pindah tubuhnya dan Wajah hanya untuk melihat satu tatapannya. Hamidah cemas berkata "Jalal, Apa yang kau lakukan ??? tidak bergerak ... rileks ... Jodha membawa air untuk Anda ..." Setelah menyadari ketidaksabaran, ia dengan cepat dikendalikan sendiri ... dia mendapat segelas air dan datang ke sisi lain dari tempat tidur di mana Rukaiya duduk ... dia diteruskan tangannya dan memberikan segelas air untuk Rukaiya untuk memberinya makan dan pindah di sudut tanpa memandangnya. Jalal menatapnya sedih dengan kesedihan yang mendalam dan rasa bersalah di wajahnya. Jodha bisa merasakan tatapannya menembus padanya, tapi dia tidak bergeming sama sekali dan keras kepala tidak mengangkat matanya. Rukaiya dan Hamidah memberikan dukungan kepada Jalal duduk ... Rukaiya diteruskan tangannya dengan segelas air ke arah mulutnya. Jalal perlahan-lahan menjauh kaca dan berkata dalam nada meminta "Rukaiya, saya tidak bermaksud untuk menyakiti Anda, tapi aku akan makan atau minum hanya dari tangan Jodha itu ... Harap Anda mengerti!" hati Rukaiya yang hangus menyakitkan tapi dia tersenyum kosong dan bangun dari sana. Jodha tanpa sadar mendekati dia dan mengambil segelas air dari meja dan diteruskan tangannya dengan kaca sambil melihat sisi lain, ia memutuskan untuk tidak melihat langsung di matanya ... Dia minum air memegang tangannya tanpa melanggar tatapannya padanya. Hamidah melihat kegelisahan Jodha dan rasa bersalah yang ekstrim Jalal itu. Dia menyadari keduanya harus menghabiskan waktu bersama-sama. Dia berkata dengan suara instruktif kuat keras dan jelas "Malika E Hindustand, Jodha begum ... Ini adalah waktu untuk memenuhi tugas Anda ... Aku memberimu tanggung jawab Jalal, aku ingin kau tinggal bersamanya sampai dia benar-benar sembuh." Hamidah tahu dengan baik, Jodha akan merasa kuat tapi dia tidak punya pilihan yang tersisa ... Jodha diperlukan Jalal lebih dari Jalal membutuhkannya ... Hamidah yang sangat terancam oleh isolasi ekstrim Jodha itu ... Bahkan setelah perintahnya, dia sopan menolak untuk keluar dan tinggal di dalam ruang selama berhari-hari ... Day by Day the way, dia berubah dan memisahkan dari orang ... itu jauh lebih menakutkan daripada kondisi Jalal ... Dia menyadari ketika dia melihat kekhawatiran ekstrim nya untuk Jalal dan untuk sementara dia lupa segala sesuatu termasuk dirinya sendiri, pada saat itu ia menyadari penyembuhan Jodha adalah hanya Jalal. Jodha menatap Hamidah dengan wajah dipertanyakan mengapa saya? Hamidah mengabaikan tatapannya dan keras kepala menunggu tanggapannya. Akhirnya, Jodha menyerah dan dengan mata berkaca-kaca ia sedih menjawab "Terserah Mariam Makani, saya akan mengikuti perintah Anda." Dia terdengar sedih ... pahit dan sarkastik. Jalal tidak ingin mengambil keuntungan dari situasi ... Dia tidak ingin menyakitinya lebih dari dia sudah punya ... Dia murung mengatakan "Ammi Jaan, saya akan mengelola dengan pelayan ... Silahkan Saya meminta Anda, jangan memaksa Jodha begum terhadap keinginannya. Jangan menghukum dia demi aku ... " Jodha akhirnya mengangkat mata terisolasi dan menatapnya langsung sementara menanggapi "Shahenshah, hume koi aapatti nahi hai, hum apna patni dharm nibhayenge ... (Shahenshah, saya tidak punya masalah merawat Anda dan itu tugas saya untuk menjaga Anda ketika Anda membutuhkan aku.) "Matanya tidak memiliki ekspresi ... dia terdengar sangat tenang ... Dia tidak tampak marah, senang, sedih, angery, tidak ada ... hanya nihil ... Melihatnya sangat tenang Jalal lagi mendapat takut ... Dia ingin meminta maaf padanya atas perilakunya segera .. .Dia ingin melihat senyum yang menyenangkan di wajahnya. Jalal sopan meminta "Ammi jaan, hum Jodha begum se Ekant mein baat karna chahte hai ... (Ammi Jaan, saya ingin berbicara dengan Jodha begum secara pribadi.)" Hamidah juga merasa bahwa itu perlu, dia tersenyum dan mengatakan Jalal Rukaiya untuk datang bersamanya. Akhirnya Jodha dan Jalal sendirian di ruangan ... Jodha berdiri di samping tempat tidurnya ... matanya diturunkan ke bawah. Ada keheningan mengerikan di ruangan ... Butuh waktu lebih dari satu menit untuk memutuskan di mana untuk memulai dari ... Dia perlahan-lahan diteruskan tangannya dan menyimpannya di telapak tangannya ... tapi Jodha langsung menarik telapak tangannya darinya. Cara ..the dia menarik tangannya, ia mendapat jawabannya ... Dia tahu dia telah kehilangan dia selamanya ... hatinya tiba-tiba dipenuhi dengan rasa sakit yang sangat besar ... ia merasa seperti menangis dengan suara keras ... kata-katanya terjebak di tenggorokannya ... akhirnya tanpa mengucapkan sepatah kata air matanya mulai membanjiri keluar ... mata Jalal yang terjebak padanya seolah-olah ia memohon belas kasihan ... Jodha masih duduk di sana dengan mata menurunkan ... Dia tahu dia tidak akan memaafkannya tapi dia harus minta maaf karena kekejamannya ... Setelah berebut kata dia mengumpulkan kekuatannya ... Pada kata-kata terakhir mendapat kebebasan yang keluar terputus-putus dari mulutnya dengan air mata "Jo..dha ... Hume maaf kardo ... humse Phir se gunah ho gaya ... hum ne aapko diwan e khaas me beizzat kiya ... "(Jodha ... Maafkan saya ... saya lagi membuat kesalahan besar ... apa yang saya lakukan adalah s dosa ... pelanggaran terbesar ... Saya telah dipermalukan dan menghina Anda di Diwane Khaas ... ") Sebelum Jalal bisa mengatakan apa-apa lagi ... Jodha menghentikannya di antara dan pahit menjawab "Shahenshah, Aap Aaram farmaye aap ka Swasthya thik nahi ... aapko koi avashyakta ho toh Hamein aawaz dijiyega hum wahan par baithe hain.