The air in my lungs depletes, and I

The air in my lungs depletes, and I have to hide my struggle for breath. I don’t want him to see how his words have affected me, so I nod quickly. “Why would he want revenge on you?”
“Because, Auburn. I have what he can’t have.”
That makes me uneasy, because I don’t like that Trey thinks he “has me.” And that’s another difference between Trey and Owen. I get the feeling Owen would never say he “has me.”
“I’ll keep it locked. Promise.”
Trey nods and heads down the hall. I close the door behind me and lock it.
I stare at the lock.
I unlock it.
I don’t know why.
Owen-Cat purrs at my feet, so I bend down and pick her up, then walk into my bedroom. The first thing I do, which is the first thing I did last night after kissing Trey, is brush my teeth. I know it’s an absurd thought, but kissing Trey makes me feel like I’m cheating on Owen.
When I finish brushing my teeth, I walk back into my bedroom and see Owen-Cat make her way inside the tent. I didn’t have the heart to take it down, mostly because I know as soon as AJ is allowed to stay the night here, he’ll love it. I crawl inside the tent and lie on my back. I pull Owen-Cat onto my stomach and begin petting her.
My emotions are all over the place right now. I feel a rush of adrenaline, knowing Owen is no longer in jail and may very well be coming for his cat sometime this week. But I’m also filled with a nervous energy, because I don’t know what will happen when I see him again. And I hate that the thought of possibly seeing him again fills me with more anticipation than Trey’s kiss does.
Owen-Cat jumps off my chest when my phone receives a text message. I pull it out of my pocket and unlock the screen.
My heart tries to escape from my chest when I read the text from Owen.
Meat Dress.
I’m immediately off my feet and into the living room and swinging the front door open. As soon as our eyes meet, my heart feels like a fist is squeezing the life right out of it.
God, I missed him.
He takes a very hesitant step forward. He doesn’t want to make me uncomfortable by being here, but I can see in his expression that he’s feeling that same tight grip around his heart that I’m feeling.
I take a step back into my apartment, and I open the door further, silently inviting him inside. A small twitch of a smile plays on the corner of his lips, and he walks slowly toward my apartment door. Once he makes his way over the threshold, I step aside until he’s all the way inside. He places his hand on the door and closes it, then turns around and locks it. When he faces me again, his expression is pained, like he doesn’t know whether to turn and leave or take me in his arms. I kind of want him to do both.

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The air in my lungs depletes, and I have to hide my struggle for breath. I don’t want him to see how his words have affected me, so I nod quickly. “Why would he want revenge on you?”“Because, Auburn. I have what he can’t have.”That makes me uneasy, because I don’t like that Trey thinks he “has me.” And that’s another difference between Trey and Owen. I get the feeling Owen would never say he “has me.”“I’ll keep it locked. Promise.”Trey nods and heads down the hall. I close the door behind me and lock it.I stare at the lock.I unlock it.I don’t know why.Owen-Cat purrs at my feet, so I bend down and pick her up, then walk into my bedroom. The first thing I do, which is the first thing I did last night after kissing Trey, is brush my teeth. I know it’s an absurd thought, but kissing Trey makes me feel like I’m cheating on Owen.When I finish brushing my teeth, I walk back into my bedroom and see Owen-Cat make her way inside the tent. I didn’t have the heart to take it down, mostly because I know as soon as AJ is allowed to stay the night here, he’ll love it. I crawl inside the tent and lie on my back. I pull Owen-Cat onto my stomach and begin petting her.Emosi saya adalah seluruh tempat sekarang. Saya merasa terburu-buru adrenalin, mengetahui Owen tidak lagi di penjara dan mungkin sangat baik datang untuk kucing Nya kadang-kadang minggu ini. Tapi aku juga dipenuhi dengan energi gugup, karena saya tidak tahu apa yang akan terjadi ketika saya melihat dia lagi. Dan aku benci bahwa pemikiran mungkin melihat dia lagi mengisi saya dengan antisipasi lebih daripada Trey's ciuman.Owen-kucing melompat dari dadaku ketika telepon saya menerima pesan teks. Saya menariknya keluar dari saku saya dan membuka layar.Hati saya mencoba untuk melarikan diri dari dada saya ketika saya membaca teks dari Owen.Gaun daging.Aku segera lepas dari kakiku dan masuk ke ruang tamu dan berayun pintu depan terbuka. Segera setelah mata kami bertemu, hati saya merasa seperti kepalan tangan meremas hak hidup dari itu.Tuhan, aku rindu padanya.Dia mengambil sangat ragu-ragu langkah maju. Dia tidak ingin membuat saya tidak nyaman dengan berada di sini, tapi saya bisa melihat dalam ekspresi bahwa ia merasa bahwa sama ketat cengkam di sekitar hatinya yang aku merasa.Saya mengambil langkah mundur ke apartemen saya, dan saya membuka pintu lebih lanjut, diam-diam mengundang dia masuk. Memainkan kedutan kecil tersenyum pada sudut bibir, dan ia berjalan perlahan menuju pintu apartemen saya. Setelah ia membuat perjalanan batas, aku melangkah ke samping sampai ia sepanjang jalan di dalam. Dia meletakkan tangannya di pintu dan menutup itu, kemudian berbalik dan kunci itu. Ketika ia menghadapi saya lagi, ekspresi adalah menyakitkan, seperti dia tidak tahu apakah untuk mengubah dan meninggalkan atau membawa saya dalam pelukannya. Aku seperti ingin dia untuk melakukan keduanya.