Finally Jodha and Jalal were alone

Finally Jodha and Jalal were alone in the chamber... Jodha was standing next to his bed... her eyes were lowered down. There was dreadful silence in the chamber... It took him more than a minute to decide where to start from... He slowly forwarded his hand and kept it on her palm... but Jodha instantly pulled her palm away from him...The way she pulled her hand, he got his answer... He knew he has lost her forever... his heart was suddenly filled with enormous pain... he felt like crying out loud... his words got stuck in his throat... finally without saying a word his tears started to flood out... Jalal's eyes stuck at her as if he was begging for her mercy... Jodha was still sitting there with lowered eyes... He knew she is not going to forgive him but he needed to apologies for his cruelty... After scrambling words he gathered his strength... At last words got freedom which came out brokenly from his mouth with tears "Jo..dha... Hume maaf kardo... humse phir se gunah ho gaya... hum ne aapko diwan e khaas me beizzat kiya..." (Jodha...Please forgive me... I have again made a big mistake...what I did was s sin... the biggest offence... I have humiliated and insulted you in Diwane Khaas...")

Before Jalal could say anything further... Jodha stopped him in between and bitterly replied "Shahenshah, Aap Aaram farmaye aap ka swasthya thik nahi... aapko koi avashyakta ho toh hamein aawaz dijiyega hum wahan par baithe hain.

("Shahenshah... Please take rest, your health is not good, You need to sleep and I am tired as well, so I am resting on this couch... If you need anything do let me know... I am just sitting across you." She cut him off coldly)

Without looking at him she turned and walked towards the couch... Jalal watched her helplessly... he realized he has really lost her this time... She does not even want listen to his apology, Jalal wanted say so much to her but she absolutely cut him off... Jodha sat down on the couch, his apology made her somewhat angry... slowly emotions started to build up again inside her cold heart...Her tears again dried up for him... Jalal was still sitting on bed resting his back on the pillow... his eyes were closed and tears were flooding out... due to deep sorrow and mammoth guilt, he looked very feeble... Unbearable outside and inside wounds completely shattered him... Jodha's ignorance killed his last hope... Just a few hours ago he realized that he was wrong all along with his aawam... His ruthless decision and ignorance has ruined many lives... He understood as a Shahenshah he has totally failed... As a husband he has failed... As a lover he has failed... In his ego and anger he almost killed his best friend... His eyes were constantly pouring out grief but his repent and remorse had no impact on Jodha... He recalled many cases when he took decisions very ruthlessly with his brain only and followed law... he recalled the recent conversation about the 8 year old kid who was punished just because he entered in the garden... With close eyes imagining little kids getting beaten with hunter scorched his soul brutally... He felt like screaming out loud... He felt like punishing himself brutally for his insensitivity.

Jodha was still looking down thinking about how he treated her ruthlessly... she still doesn't know why he insulted her in front of so many people and why now suddenly he is apologizing... In these three weeks her heart became like stone... Suddenly she heard the dim sound of his sob ... Her heart skipped beats... is he in pain again? She lifted her eyes up to see him... His eyes were closed and tears were flooding out... His condition looked vulnerable and his face was showing massive pain and guilt... Seeing his condition Jodha's heart melt a little.

She walked and sat on the bed next to him, then slowly wiped his tears and asked him with lot of concern... "Shahenshah, aapko bahot dard ho raha hai..." (Shahenshah, Are you in too much pain")

Jalal opened his eyes and saw her sitting next to him. He was extremely surprised seeing her caring for him... He said sadly "Haan Jodha hume bahut dard ho raha hai... pata hai muje kaha dard ho raha hai..." he kept his hand on his heart... and said "hume yahan dard ho raha hai... Aur iss dard ko sehen karne ki takat hum mein nahi hai...shayad humare gunah ki intayhaa ke aage ye dard kuch bhi nahi hai... Humne jab bhi tumhe chot phochai hai usse jyada hi humne chot khai hai..." he cried out loud and with folded hands... "humein maaf kar do varna hum mar jayenge... Jodha ... Aap Ki yeh chuppi hume mar dalegi... aapki aankhon mein ye narazgi aur yeh sanjeedgi humse bardast nahi ho rahi hai... Aap ki aankhon mein na toh mohabbat hai aur na hi nafrat hai... In dard bhari aankhon mein humein sama lo..." (Hmmm...yes...Jodha... I am in extreme pain but do you where it hurts the most...?" He kept his hand on his heart and said "I have unbearable ache inside my heart and feels like my heart will burst... I am not capable enough to bear this suffocation... Even after my uncountable crimes, offences, cruelty and sin I am begging for forgiveness... I have hurt you so many times but every time I have hurt you I have got hurt worse than anyone... " He paused to see love in her eyes but when he saw her still impassive eyes... He broked down with loud sob and continued in pleading tone "Jodha, please forgive me for the last time... I can't bear the silence and hatred in your eyes for me... Your ignorance will take my life... I can not read your eyes anymore... you have nothing left in them... I don't see love or hate in them... feels like you have no feelings left... feels like my soul is detaching from me... Jodha please take me in your embrace or punish me but your isolation will tore me apart for god sake say something.)

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Akhirnya Jodha dan Jalal berada sendirian di kamar... Jodha berdiri di samping tempat tidurnya... matanya yang menurunkan. Ada keheningan yang mengerikan di ruang... Itu membawanya lebih dari satu menit untuk menentukan di mana untuk memulai dari... Ia perlahan-lahan diteruskan tangannya dan menyimpannya pada nya palm... tapi Jodha langsung ditarik telapak darinya...Cara dia menarik tangannya, ia mendapat jawabannya... Dia tahu dia telah kehilangan dia selamanya... hatinya tiba-tiba dipenuhi dengan rasa sakit besar... ia merasa seperti menangis dengan suara keras... kata-katanya terjebak di tenggorokan... akhirnya tanpa mengucapkan sepatah kata matanya mulai membanjiri... Jalal di mata terjebak padanya seolah-olah ia adalah memohon untuk belas kasihan Nya... Jodha masih duduk di sana dengan menurunkan mata... Dia tahu dia tidak akan mengampuni dia, tetapi ia perlu minta maaf untuk kekejaman nya... Setelah berjuang kata-kata dia mengumpulkan kekuatan-Nya... Pada kata-kata terakhir mendapat kebebasan yang keluar brokenly dari mulut-Nya dengan air mata "Jo...DHA... Hume maaf kardo... humse phir se gunah ho gaya... hum ne aapko diwan e khaas saya beizzat kiya... " (Jodha...Maafkan aku... Aku kembali membuat kesalahan besar... apa yang saya lakukan adalah s dosa... pelanggaran terbesar... Aku punya dipermalukan dan menghina Anda di Diwane Khaas...")Sebelum Jalal bisa mengatakan apa-apa lagi... Jodha menghentikannya di antara dan pahit menjawab "Shahenshah, Aap Aaram farmaye aap ka swasthya thik nahi... aapko koi avashyakta ho toh hamein aawaz dijiyega hum wahan par baithe hain.("Shahenshah... Silakan beristirahat, kesehatan Anda bukanlah hal yang baik, Anda perlu untuk tidur dan aku lelah juga, jadi saya sedang beristirahat di sofa ini... Jika Anda butuh sesuatu biarkan aku tahu... Aku hanya duduk di Anda." Ia melenyapkan dia dari dingin)Tanpa memandang dia, dia berbalik dan berjalan menuju sofa... Jalal menyaksikan dia tak berdaya... dia menyadari bahwa dia benar-benar kehilangan dia saat ini... Dia bahkan tidak ingin mendengarkan apology-nya, Jalal ingin mengatakan begitu banyak padanya tapi ia benar-benar memotong dia... Jodha duduk di sofa, apology-nya membuatnya agak marah... perlahan-lahan emosi mulai membangun kembali di dalam hati Nya dingin...Matanya lagi kering untuk dia... Jalal masih duduk di tempat tidur beristirahat kembali di atas bantal... nya mata terpejam dan air mata yang banjir... karena kesedihan mendalam dan rasa bersalah raksasa, ia tampak sangat lemah... Tak tertahankan luka luar dan dalam benar-benar hancur nya... Jodha's ketidaktahuan membunuh harapan terakhirnya... Hanya beberapa hari lalu ia menyadari bahwa ia salah dengan aawam nya... Keputusan kejam dan kebodohan-nya telah merusak banyak kehidupan... Dia mengerti sebagai Shahenshah yang ia benar-benar telah gagal... Sebagai seorang suami dia telah gagal... Sebagai pecinta ia telah gagal... Ego dan kemarahan ia hampir membunuh sahabatnya... Matanya yang terus mengalir keluar kesedihan tapi ia bertobat dan penyesalan tidak memiliki dampak pada Jodha... Dia ingat banyak kasus ketika ia mengambil keputusan yang sangat kejam dengan otaknya hanya dan mengikuti hukum... ia teringat hari percakapan tentang anak berusia 8 tahun yang dihukum karena ia masuk di taman... Dengan tutup mata membayangkan sedikit anak-anak mendapatkan dipukuli dengan hunter hangus jiwanya brutal... Dia merasa seperti berteriak keras... Dia merasa seperti menghukum dirinya sendiri secara brutal untuk ketidaksensitifan nya.Jodha masih melihat ke bawah berpikir tentang bagaimana ia diperlakukan dengan kejam... dia masih tidak tahu mengapa ia menghina dia di depan begitu banyak orang dan mengapa sekarang tiba-tiba ia adalah minta maaf... Dalam tiga minggu ini hatinya menjadi seperti batu... Tiba-tiba ia mendengar suara redup sob nya... Hatinya melewatkan ketukan... Apakah dia sakit lagi? Dia mengangkat mata untuk melihatnya... Ditutup matanya dan air mata yang banjir... Kondisinya tampak rentan dan wajahnya menunjukkan besar nyeri dan rasa bersalah... Melihat nya Jodha kondisi jantung mencair sedikit.Dia berjalan dan duduk di tempat tidur di sebelahnya, lalu perlahan-lahan menyeka matanya dan memintanya dengan banyak perhatian... "Shahenshah, aapko bahot dard ho raha hai..." (Shahenshah, Apakah Anda sakit terlalu banyak ")Jalal membuka matanya dan melihat dia duduk di dekatnya. Dia adalah sangat terkejut melihat dia merawat dia... Dia mengatakan sedih "bahut Haan Jodha hume dard ho raha hai... pata hai muje kaha dard ho raha hai..." dia terus tangannya di hatinya... dan berkata "hume yahan dard ho raha hai... Aur iss dard ko sehen karne ki takat hum mein nahi hai... shayad humare gunah ki intayhaa ke aage kamu dard Kaho bhi nahi hai... Humne jab bhi tumhe chot phochai hai usse jyada hi humne chot khai hai..."dia menangis keras dan dengan tangan terlipat... "humein maaf kar lakukan varna hum mar jayenge... Jodha... AAP Ki yeh chuppi hume Maret dalegi... aapki aankhon mein kamu narazgi aur yeh sanjeedgi humse bardast nahi ho rahi hai... AAP ki aankhon mein na toh mohabbat hai aur na hi nafrat hai... Di dard bhari aankhon mein humein sama lo... " (Hmmm...Ya...Jodha... Aku sedang dalam kesakitan yang ekstrem tapi apakah Anda tempat yang menyakitkan yang paling...?" Ia terus tangannya hatinya dan berkata "saya memiliki sakit tak tertahankan di dalam hati saya dan terasa seperti hati saya akan meledak... Saya tidak cukup mampu menanggung mati-lemas ini... Bahkan setelah saya terhitung kejahatan, kejahatan, kekejaman dan dosa aku memohon ampunan... Aku telah menyakiti Anda begitu banyak kali tapi setiap kali aku telah menyakiti Anda aku punya sakit lebih buruk daripada orang... "Dia berhenti untuk melihat cinta di matanya, tetapi ketika ia melihat matanya masih pasif... Ia broked turun dengan canda keras dan terus memohon nada "Jodha, ampunilah saya untuk terakhir kalinya... Saya tidak tahan keheningan dan kebencian di matamu bagi saya... Ketidaktahuan Anda akan mengambil hidup saya... Saya tidak bisa membaca mata Anda lagi... Anda tidak ada lagi di dalamnya... Saya tidak melihat cinta atau benci mereka... merasa seperti Anda memiliki ada perasaan yang meninggalkan... rasanya seperti jiwaku memisahkan dari saya... Jodha silakan membawa saya merangkul Anda atau menghukum saya tapi isolasi Anda akan merobek saya terpisah demi Allah mengatakan sesuatu.)