Failure is canceled success. Someti

Failure is canceled success. Sometimes, what you have planned would not always turn as what you want it to. I failed at my SNMPTN test. It is a test to enter in a University through academic records since the first semester until the last semester in high school. At first, I was confident enough that I can pass that test because I already prepared it since a long time to keep my score steady and increasing every semester. I got a got grade in class in every semester so my total score could be considered by any University to accept me. That was how ambitious I was. All of preparation I had prepared since beginning was ruined by a mistake done by my previous school. They put my data wrongly, so basically before SNMPTN officially started, every school need to entry their student data contain: score in every semester, the grade, and their student’s profile or usually called as PDSS, but I couldn’t apply on SNMPTN because my previous school entered my NISN (National Student Number) wrongly, and it was the reason why I could not apply on the test because my data didn’t found. I felt really sad at that time, not because I was unable to pass the test, but even worse than it: I could not even apply on it. It felt like I lose even before I got into the real war. I had missed my opportunity to be accepted in a University without doing any written test.
For me, failure is the points where I need to look back and analyzed which part was wrong and have to be fixed. After that I have to focus forward and decide what my goals are and what I have to gain. It did not matter if I have to start from the beginning again. I always view the things from the positive sides even though the situation I faced was difficult and hard. At first I was mad at my previous school but should I really put the blame on them? Because it would not change anything though, my data still wrong and after all I realized that being mad or angry would not give any advantages for me, it only spent a lot energy and time without any result. Somehow that was my own mistake. I should have checked my data in the very first place to make sure my school was entering a right data and I should have reported any error quickly before the deadline verification date closed. So I started to convince myself that it was useless to blaming other people when I know that most part of it was my own fault. It was important to stay positive in the worst condition so I was able to think wisely, and see the things clearly. If your thought in a mess, you could not decided well.
Furthermore, I realized lose once did not mean I could not win the rest, I convinced myself that SNMPTN was not the only way to enter the University, there was still a bunch of chances to take, the only way to go through it was to face the reality and try another way. “There are so many ways to go to Roma” so it meant I still have another chances. Once again, all I need is to try and to work harder than before. That was how I reacted for my failure on SNMPTN, instead of crying like a baby and blaming my school for mistaken my data, I chose to stay strong and motivated myself to study more and to prepare myself for the SBMPTN that would be held a month later. I read a lot of preparation test book, I asked the senior about the SBMPTN and they even gave me some tips how to do it, and most important was I have been applied on that test since the first day it had been opened. I tried to get the newest information about the test, such as the date when it would be held, about where the location or the room is. I learned for my experience not to miss any information because I did not want to do the same mistake. I want to make sure that I prepared myself one hundred percent. Besides, arrange the new and well prepared strategy is important so I was being able to read the situation and found the opportunity because I knew the information earlier. Unprepared things would never give a good result.
I motivated myself by put on my mind to never under esteem my own self or looking lowly at my ability. I can do more than I know. The key were to finding my inner strength and optimaling my ability to the maximum. Being confident is very important. Learn from the ugliest things that happened to you, that was what I setled on my mind since the beginning. I woud never let my self down any more . How I could be respected by other people if I could not even respect my own self. Failure did not make me a bad or stupid person, it was simply meant I have to do more and learn more. I could find a lesson from the smallest mistake I have done. As what happened in the SBMPTN day, Even though I was feeling nervous but I tried to calm myself and to make it stop distracting me. However, I believed I could make it because I have studied a lot before. I spent my time wisely to answer the questions and I was so sure about the answer. When the time is over I smiled proudly because I was confident with the result. And my confident and effort never betrayed me because a few weeks later I read the SBMPTN announcement which informed me that I have been accepted in English Department as I wished in the first place. It made me believe that it doesn’t matter I have failed. My concern is whether my failure could make me learn something new and valuable. I learned from my mistake. As long as I don’t give up, all the effort I put will never betrayed me. I was not a loser, but I just need a little more shot to get the success because I have the same right as other people have to be success. Maybe not from the beginning but at least I got it in the end.