I'm starting to accept it. That we

I'm starting to accept it. That we won't be together. That we can't be together. Especially the last two nights he's been here. It really feels like we've finally transitioned. There are definitely still moments, but none we're not able to overcome. It's only October and he'll be my teacher until June. That's still eight long months. When I look at the shift my life has made in the past eight months, I can't fathom what my life will be eight months from now. When I lie down and close my eyes, I make a resolution. Will is not going to be my first priority anymore. I'm putting my mother first, Kel second and life third.
 
Finally. He no longer has a hold on me.
 
***
 
"Eddie, will you go grab me a chocolate milk, Babe? I forgot to get one." Gavin is giving Eddie puppy dog eyes. Eddie rolls her eyes and gets up. As soon as she leaves the table, he turns toward us and starts whispering.
 
"Tomorrow night. Getty’s. Six o'clock. Bring a pink balloon. And we're going to the slam afterward."
 
"Gavin, are you crazy? That's not funny, she'll be pissed," I whisper.
 
"Just trust me."
 
She's back at the table with the chocolate milk.
 
"Here, Babe. You owe me fifty-cents."
 
"I owe you my heart," Gavin says as she hands him the milk.
 
She slaps him lightly across the head. "Oh, grow a pair! You're such a sap," she says, right before she kisses his cheek.
 
***
 
I reluctantly walk into Getty’s pizza with a pink balloon in my hand. Gavin and Nick are gathered in the back of the room at a booth. He motions for me to join them. There are so many pink balloons. She's going to be pissed.
 
Gavin grabs my balloon and writes something on it with a big marker. "Here," Gavin says as he hands me the fistful of balloons. "Take all these and go to the back by the bathrooms. I'll come get you when it's time, she'll be here soon."
 
He shoves me toward the bathroom before I have a chance to object. I stand in a corner in the hallway between the men's room and the janitors’ closet. I look up at all the balloons, and that's when I notice there are names written on each one of them.
 
Moments later, an older gentleman walks down the hall toward me.
 
"Are you Layken?" he asks.
 
"Yes," I reply.
 
"I'm Joel, Eddie’s foster dad."
 
"Oh, hey."
 
"Gavin wants you out front, I'll take the balloons now. Eddie's out there. She thinks I went to the bathroom so don't say anything about the balloons."
 
"Uh, okay." I hand him the balloons and walk back to the table.
 
"Layken! You came! Guys this is so sweet," Eddie says. She starts to sit at the booth when Gavin pulls her back up.
 
"We're not eating yet. We need to go outside."
 
"Outside? But it's cold out there."
 
"Come on," he says as he pulls her toward the door.
 
We all follow Gavin outside and stand next to Eddie. I look at Nick but he shrugs, implying he doesn't know what's going on, either. Gavin pulls a piece of paper out of his pocket and stands in front of Eddie.
 
"I didn't write this letter, Sweetie. But I was told to read it."
 
Eddie looks at us and smiles, trying to gain hints from our expressions. We can't give her any, because we don't even know.

Hasil (Bahasa Indonesia) 2:

Aku mulai menerimanya. Bahwa kita tidak akan bersama-sama. Bahwa kita tidak bisa bersama-sama. Terutama dua malam terakhir dia berada di sini. Itu benar-benar terasa seperti kami akhirnya dialihkan. Ada pasti masih saat, tetapi tidak ada kami tidak bisa mengatasi. Ini hanya Oktober dan dia akan menjadi guru saya sampai Juni. Itu masih delapan bulan yang panjang. Ketika saya melihat pergeseran hidup saya telah dibuat dalam delapan bulan terakhir, saya tidak bisa membayangkan apa hidup saya akan menjadi delapan bulan dari sekarang. Ketika saya berbaring dan menutup mata saya, saya membuat sebuah resolusi. Akan tidak akan menjadi prioritas pertama saya lagi. Aku meletakkan ibu saya pertama, Kel kedua dan kehidupan ketiga. Akhirnya. Dia tidak lagi memiliki pegangan pada saya. *** "Eddie, akan Anda pergi ambil saya susu cokelat, babe? Saya lupa untuk mendapatkan satu." Gavin memberikan Eddie mata anak anjing. Eddie memutar matanya dan bangun. Begitu dia meninggalkan meja, ia berbalik ke arah kami dan mulai berbisik. "Besok malam. Getty. Enam jam. Bawa balon merah muda. Dan kita akan slam sesudahnya." "Gavin, kau gila? itu tidak lucu, dia akan marah, "bisikku. " Hanya percaya padaku. " dia kembali di meja dengan susu cokelat. " di sini, babe. kau berutang padaku lima puluh sen. " " aku berutang hatiku, "Gavin mengatakan saat ia menyerahkan dia susu. dia menampar dia ringan di kepala. "Oh, tumbuh sepasang! Kau getah seperti itu," katanya, tepat sebelum dia mencium pipinya. *** Aku enggan berjalan ke Getty pizza dengan balon merah muda di tangan saya. Gavin dan Nick berkumpul di belakang ruangan di sebuah bilik. Dia gerakan bagi saya untuk bergabung dengan mereka. Ada begitu banyak balon merah muda. Dia akan marah. Gavin meraih balon dan menulis sesuatu di atasnya dengan spidol besar. "Di sini," kata Gavin sambil tangan saya sekepal balon. "Ambil semua ini dan pergi ke belakang dengan kamar mandi. Aku akan datang mendapatkan Anda ketika saatnya, dia akan segera datang." Dia Sorong saya menuju kamar mandi sebelum aku memiliki kesempatan untuk mengajukan keberatan. Aku berdiri di sudut di lorong antara kamar kecil pria dan lemari petugas pembersih '. Aku melihat ke semua balon, dan saat itulah saya melihat ada nama-nama yang ditulis pada masing-masing dari mereka. Beberapa saat kemudian, seorang pria tua berjalan menyusuri lorong ke arah saya. "Apakah Anda layken?" dia bertanya. "Ya," jawabku. "Aku Joel, ayah angkat Eddie." "Oh, hey." "Gavin ingin Anda depan, aku akan mengambil balon sekarang. Eddie di luar sana. Dia pikir aku pergi ke kamar mandi sehingga tidak mengatakan apa-apa tentang balon. " " Uh, oke. " Saya menyerahkan balon dan berjalan kembali ke meja. "Layken! Kamu datang! Orang-orang ini sangat manis," kata Eddie. Dia mulai duduk di stan ketika Gavin menarik dia kembali. "Kami tidak makan belum. Kita harus pergi ke luar." "Di luar? Tapi itu dingin di luar sana." "Ayo," katanya sambil menarik dia menuju pintu. Kami semua mengikuti Gavin luar dan berdiri di samping Eddie. Saya melihat Nick tapi dia mengangkat bahu, menyiratkan bahwa dia tidak tahu apa yang terjadi, baik. Gavin menarik secarik kertas dari sakunya dan berdiri di depan Eddie. "Saya tidak menulis surat ini, Sweetie. Tapi saya diberitahu untuk membacanya." Eddie menatap kami dan tersenyum, mencoba untuk mendapatkan petunjuk dari kami ekspresi. Kita tidak bisa memberinya apapun, karena kita bahkan tidak tahu.