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Aku meletakkan kartu kembali dalam amplop dan menonton sebagai Danau menggosok tangannya di seluruh kaca, berputar di sekitar untuk melihat dari semua sudut. "Saya melihat dia membuat sekali. Ketika aku masuk ke kamarnya, dia adalah melipat strip kertas dan dia berhenti dan menyisihkannya sebagai kita berbicara. Aku lupa tentang hal itu. Aku lupa semua tentang itu. Ini harus membawanya selamanya." Ia menatap bintang-bintang dan aku menatapnya. Dia menyeka air mata lebih dari matanya dengan punggung tangan. Dia memegang itu bersama-sama baik, segala sesuatu dianggap. "Saya ingin membaca mereka semua, tapi pada saat yang sama saya harap kita tidak perlu membaca mereka sama sekali," katanya. Aku bersandar ke depan dan memberinya ciuman cepat. "Anda sebagai luar biasa sebagai ibumu." Aku mengambil vas dari tangannya dan berjalan ke lemari dan meletakkannya. Danau mengambil kotak dan menyodorkan kertas pembungkus di dalam dan set itu di lantai. Dia menempatkan kartu di atas meja, dan kemudian terletak kembali di tempat tidur. Aku berbaring di samping dia, berpaling kepada dia dan beristirahat lengan atas pinggang. "Anda baik-baik saja?" Aku bertanya padanya. Saya tidak tahu apakah dia sedih. Dia memandang saya dan tersenyum. "Saya pikir itu akan menyakitkan untuk mendengar kata-katanya lagi, tapi tidak. Itu benar-benar membuat saya bahagia,"katanya. "Saya juga," kataku. "Saya adalah benar-benar khawatir itu sebuah puppy." Dia tertawa dan meletakkan kepalanya di lenganku. Kita berbaring di sana dalam keheningan menonton satu sama lain. Saya menjalankan tanganku lengan dan melacak nya wajah dan leher dengan ujung jari saya. Saya suka menonton dia pikir. She eventually lifts her head off my arm and slides on top of me, placing her hands on the back of my neck. She leans in and slowly parts my lips with hers. I become quickly consumed by the taste of her lips and the feel of her warm hands. I wrap my arms around her and run my fingers through her hair as I return her kiss. It’s been so long since we’ve been alone together without the possibility of being interrupted. I hate being in this predicament-but then again I love being in this predicament. Her skin is so soft, her lips are perfect. It gets harder and harder to retreat every time. She runs her hands underneath my shirt and lightly teases my neck with her mouth. She knows this drives me crazy, yet she’s been doing it more and more lately. I think she likes pushing her boundaries. One of us needs to retreat…and I don't know if I can bring myself to do it. Apparently, neither can she. “How much time do we have?” she whispers. She lifts up my shirt and her lips make their way down to my chest. “Time?” I say weakly. “Until the boys get home.” She slowly kisses her way back up to my neck again. “How long do we have until they get home?” She brings her face back to mine and looks at me. I can see by the look in her eyes that she’s telling me she’s not retreating. I bring my arm over my face and cover my eyes. I try to talk myself down. This isn’t how I want it to be for her. Think about something else, Will. Think about college, homework, puppies in cardboard boxes…anything. She pulls my arm away from my face so she can look me in the eyes. “Will…it’s been a year. I want to.” I roll her onto her back and prop my head up on my elbow and lean in toward her, stroking her face with my other hand. “Lake, believe me…I’m ready, too. But not here. Not right now. You’ll just have to go home in an hour when the boys get back and I don’t think I could take it.” I kiss her on the forehead. “In two weeks we get a three day weekend…we’ll go away together. Just the two of us. I’ll see if my grandparents will watch the boys and we can spend the whole weekend together.” She kicks her legs up and down on the bed, frustrated. “I can’t wait two more weeks! We’ve been waiting fifty-seven weeks already!” I laugh at her childishness and lean in, planting a kiss on her cheek. “If I can wait, you can definitely wait,” I assure her. She rolls her eyes. “God, you’re such a bore,” she teases. “Oh, I’m a bore?” I say. “You want me to throw you in the shower again? Cool you off? I will if that’s what you need.” “Only if you get in with me,” she says. Her eyes grow wide and she sits up and pushes me flat on my back, leaning over me. “Will!” she says excitedly as a new realization dawns on her. “Does that mean we can take showers together? On our getaway?” Her eagerness surprises me. Everything she does surprises me. “You aren’t nervous?” I ask her. “No, not at all.” She smiles and leans in closer. “I know I’ll be in good hands.” “You will definitely be in good hands,” I say, pulling her to me. Just when I’m about to kiss her again, my phone vibrates. She reaches into my pocket and pulls it out. “Gavin,” she says. She hands the phone to me and rolls off. I read the text. “Great, Kel threw up. They think he has a stomach bug so they’re bringing them home.” She groans and gets off the bed. “Ugh! I hate vomit! Caulder’s probably gonna get it too-the way they pass crap back and forth.” “I’ll text him back and tell him to take Kel to your house.